I agree about your last statement. I have become numb to some extent. My past been very hurtful by my mother, father, ex husband,siblings and bad events in my life has made me this way. I've learned in my heart to forgive all of them. I longer play the VICTIM Role in my life. I see the light but sometimes Relationships have been the hardest to figure out. I've been divorce for 14 yrs now and looking for someone to settle down with. Only had a 5 true relationships since my divorce. I don't bring them around to my family unless I know for sure. I'm always alone in family functions-tired of hearing my family questioning me about my status-especially if I turned LESBIAN since no man in my life.. Secondly When I love, I love hard I devote myself 100%.
Some of my relationships have been very hurtful..Lying, deceit and cheating have been the culprits. So yes, those situation have made me stay in my shell. A man will need to really show me true dedication, loyalty and securtiy before I can truely open up.
Paul, I feel a strong connection but has lied to me so many times and question his judgement.
A previous relationship Abel 11-11-75 (before Paul) I trusted him so much and I allowed him close to my family. Went so far to introduce me to his family as his future wife and looking for a ring....Long story short . He lied -was married to someone else ...I sometimes feel Marriage is not in my future