I guess it still makes me sad!
Posts made by masterofnone12
RE: What now?
thank you. We definitely did have power struggles (he usually gave in) I do think two aires can be difficult together but at the same time I have dated Leo's and sags and aquarius all good matches for the aries person and it never felt like this. To be honest most of our issues were when we were apart, When we were together it just felt right. Not because I was lonely or not loving myself (the opposite is true in fact everything in my life is all about me, I do what makes me happy and puts my mind at ease regardless of who it upsets) it has in fact driven away quite a few people, and I think my selfishness has also played a big part in the ruining of this relationship. I am a total control freak and it spills over into every area of my life. With him I am guilty of a lot of if you dont do this then...
You know what I mean? I do realize we aren't the ideal match but I honestly felt our issues were minor and things coming to an end basically was me saying you can't do this my way then goodbye. Now I regret it. From the moment I said the words I regretted it but admitting I am wrong is never easy. Even now just talking to him about it everytime I just choke on my pride and I can't do it
RE: What now?
So I am just feeling sorry for myself today. My apartment is under about 10 ft of water. I went home to check my street looks like a river I couldn't even go inside. I've lost the guy I love. Its even making me resentful of all of the happy people around me. I won't say I am miserable but I miss him, Everyday I wake up I feel like I am missing something.
Two years ago I met this guy, I was just getting out of a relationship and to be honest he was unexpected. He was not my type physically and just so different from what I am usually attracted to. His family and my family are from the same place. In fact my grandmother and his dad are very good friends but we'd never met before then. We had the most amazing 3 weeks together and when we parted I felt like I'd known him forever.
So we began seeing each other it was long distance I am in the US he is in the UK. I would go see him. I spent the holidays with him and it was amazing. But we always had an issue with him coming to see me (I was engaged it fell apart and it was probably the most humiliating thing ever) He'd met my mom my sister and grandmother but I was not ready for him to meet the rest of my family. He'd push and it would make me more adamant about not wanting him to come.
To make a long story short we are both very big personalities and neither one would back down and that led to some pretty explosive fights so we broke up. He believed the reason I wouldn't let him come is because I had a boyfriend (not the case) we talked for months and tried to work things out. But I miss him so much. Honestly I miss him everyday and its been months we talk. I know he loves me but I dont know how to fix things and I want to. Is it even worth fixing with the distance all that we have been through. Its been over two years since we met and I cant imagine being with anyone else. Can two stubborn aries make it work. What does the future hold if it holds anything
Any insight would be greatly appreciated. I sit here listening to the winds howling outside and I just miss him...