Re: I Ching readings here

Hi Captain I would appreciate a dark energy removal, especially because it's attached to my left side, making me feel numb and with heart pain. Thank u

Hi Bloom, hope you had a good Christmas with your loved ones and that you are feeling awesome.
Sorry to bother you with the same issue. Currently I'm off meds for the embolism I did last year, after a lot of exams and tests it was decided that I don't need them anymore and that I'm healthy. I was so happy with this diagnosis as you know blood thinners are terrible for our body. So last year for me was all about recovery, make myself stronger, flexible free of anxiety, but... the end of the year for me was terrible, I had excruciating leg and neck pain, my whole spine was blocked went to a osteopath and on New year's Eve, suddenly while watching a kids movie I started feeling my heart trembling got up and was nauseous, cold I checked the blood pressure and it was 11/10; heart beat 63 and this continued for about 2 hours, so I took a pill to help with the anxiety that was starting to flair up, lay down on my bed and half an hour before 12 the blood pressure was already 10/6 and I was feeling much better.
Since then I'm doing again anxiety attacks and heart doesn't settle.
I swear to you that I've been meditating, doing reiki, taking teas,vitamins and was getting better and now this? I'm so tired of feeling like crap, I did all the tests and no one starts suffering from the heart out of the blue and it's definitely not another blood clot coz I would be dead by now if it was. I'm also tired of hospitals and having the docs look at me like I'm crazy. Im asking for your insight because I really can't figure this out, what is that the spirit/ universe wants from me that I'm not doing?
And why I'm having such a hard time in appreciating life again?

Hi Dal, going thru some rough times, almost died, still recovering, love life is chaotic, work is good.

My past is coming back to haunt me or to finally learn some lessons don't know which. Would appreciate a reading. Thanks

Thank you Captain, lately life decided to give me all the heart breaks at once, keep losing people that are to important to me, or they die or they leave to another country. Faced my own death too, still recovering. I try to put a smile, I try to feel genuinely happy but the pain consumes me, it's a soul pain. Thanks again

@daliolite, thanks for the reply, I'm still here.

No Captain, sometimes I disrespected my body especially when my physical state was healed, I disrespected it by smoking and drinking more than i should. I know that the universe didn't wanted me to do such things on a daily basis but last year I needed that to feel numb. My almost death was a warning to stop, I was forced to. I'm medicated, so far according to the doc my body healed, like they never seen it before. I knew it wasn't my time to go. The prob. is I feel disappointed, coz after knowing my results, found out that my mom has cancer, started having panick attacks, my anxiety sometimes is overwhelming, my muscles are not healing as well my body nerves, my left side is constantly numb and in pain. I was in a hospital bed for 22 days, first week couldn't move, they drugged me and now I'm addicted to anxiolytic. My whole family was collapsing and everyone was turning to me and i needed time to heal, I never got that time. In truth I'm more disappointed than angry. And yes u r right, I know I'm loved but we are not together, I miss the hugs and the talks. Eventually one day I'll stop missing him and he will too, and we will move on with our lives. Like I said Captain I feel everything so deeply, tried not to, ignore everything, detach and all I got was a full pulmonary embolism and my heart chakra not aligned and "constantly in pain". I need to fall in love with something that gives meaning to my life (not man) I need to start exercising again but I'm still in pain, which doesn't help and I need my time alone to heal.

@daliolite welcome back, having the same issue trying to figure out how this new page work, lol. Yes u r right I'm next

Only in love it's when I become a lil dependent. With me its all or nothing, I love genuinely and I'm a caregiver, but I don't expect anything in return. I've learned the hardest lesson:" if you truly love someone set him free". I'm very distant too, my family says I'm cold, but I'm not ,I deeply care but I've learned to detach. But still hurts, mainly I think I'm mad and hurt at the universe for letting me get I'll and for not being at 100% to help my family and friends.

@tarotnick in Nov.2017 I almost died, did a pulmonary embolism, spent all 2018 recovering, in constant fear, at the hospital they addicted me in ansiolitics, my anxiety levels were always high and did several panic attacks in a last attempt of fixing myself end up at a shrink, got worse almost killed me, my thyroid collapsed too. Due the time spent laying down on my left side of the body my escolioses got worse, now I'm in constant pain, leg and neck mainly. When this pain surges, which happened on the Christmas night, my anxiety levels got out of control. Literally I've been thru hell last year, not only in health but emotionally due a lot of human/pet losses so important to me. Currently I'm having a hard time enjoying life and making plans, I lost the taste for everything, I don't feel depressed but more like disappointed because I've been trying and doing my best to overcome this, I see a light at the end of the tunnel lasts 2 days than it's dark again. I meditate, I do reiki, I'm an empath too, sometimes I forgot to protect myself, I was a medium maybe I still am but I feel I lost the connection. I constantly wonder what is expected from me. To be honest this emboly thing traumatized me and I can't shake it off.
I'm so sorry for making you feel my disappointment and sadness. I'm so Grateful. Thank you

@jayann Beautiful. "Some people come into your life for a season" this happened to me a few times and felt like I was hit by a tornado, lol.. We don't see it at the time but is really for our best good if we are willing to surrender and let the Universe do his work.

@blmoon My husband thinks I shouldn't do anything, but it's like you say the seed spreads.
I should have never gave her my trust, I never liked her, until she started working with me, and played me, I thought that my instincts were wrong. So stupid I was. My supervisor is a different story, shes neutral, I never disliked her, I just think she's in the wrong position, she's not qualified, she got the job because she was a sweetheart and took the previous supervision home. I saw this happening under my eyes. And the position was graded way lower so she could fill it and because of her, no one can be requalified, me included, but legally I'm not under her jurisdiction and she knows I know this. I tried to help her but I sound angry, when I'm frustrated, I loose my reason everytime I let this happen. My co-worker saw it, took advantage of it, I got really sick, did panick attacks at work due the burn-out I was experimenting, lost composure, coz I yelled at certain people that got on my nerves. My biggest problem is that I like to have things done the way it's supposed to, I don't like easy fixes, coz I know someone, not justifiable payments. They don't like me coz of this. Because I do my job but my coworker wants to be me, funny uhun... I've been thinking, professionally they cannot do me any harm, I'm recognized world wide for my good job, Friday other supervisor will let others know, I won't teach her my job and plus I will remove from her something that was mine, that she thinks it gives her importance, this will be my revenge. I don't need to be friends with her, I have people in there that love me, she cannot corrupt those. My gifts are back again, they were masked by the drugs I took,I'm getting my life back. Archangel Michael is with me,my guided are with me. They are saying "it's time for choices, this is for you to grow, leave everything behind that no longer serves you, u have waisted to much time of your life worrying with stupid things, take care of you" So BLmoon I'm not afraid, never was I just hate, haters. I'm just to darn affected by my surroundings, my energy field gets off balance. Thank you my sweet Blmoon, I'm calmer now.

Dear Blmoom, hope this finds you well. What brings me to you is that, I'm too furious and nervous to really see the reason why this is happening.
I suspected that some people were againts me at work, the main reason I see for this to be happening is that I try my best to be honest and do what my regulations say, by wanting to have this done as its written, I have to call the attention of too many people, supervisor included because I need her support and I'm not getting it. My coworker receives better performance awards and when I'm on leave receives special recommendations, and this in my line of work is weird, because our job rarely stands up. Someone told me that they were trashing my name and the name of my husband, a few times I caught the supervisor and my coworker speaking bout him, lately I over heard a conversation about me, which hurt like hell, coz I treated this girl well, I pulled her under my wing, fixed her mistakes and thought her what I knew, I wanted our job to be equal and a success.
If she was saying the truth, well I have to deal with it, but she wasn't, she was inciting my/our supervisor to be against me. I dunno what to do, to have some justice I have to go to my supervisor boss which is constantly at my supervisor house. Upper means that an investigation will be in place, and they can loose their jobs and to be honest I won't look good too.
I need to work with her and it's getting impossible, I'm not fake, I have a hard time pretending.
Want to thank for all the support you have given me about my health issues, now finally there's an explanation for a lot of my symptoms it's called burn out, apparently I always took my body/mental to exhaustion. And with this going on I haven't been able to sleep for a week.
Thank you

@blmoon Just like you I miss a lot with this new tarot feed, for me it's a pain, lol. I identified so much with everything that you wrote, and I'm sorry for your son. All my life I was an empath and could feel and sometimes see the dead people or animals, i've never fully developed any of the other gifts, I can say I have almost all of them but in crises I don't function well. For years I thought I was mentally insane, at 14 after much praying it stopped, on my 35 birthday everything started again.
And with pains and problems that no doctor can explain.
When I did the embolism I knew I wasn't going to die but was scared coz I wasn't sure if it was cancer, I also knew that I was going to drop the pills, but sure wasn't expecting for my anxiety to flare up.
Since that time I've been experiencing all sorts of pain and looking for an explanation.
Did an MRI this year, so I have a cervical hernia between C1 and 2 and the other 2 are showing a bit compressed but with no hernia, my lower back L5 is fractured, so the doc said that it's only fixed with surgery, but both are complicated,the lower back vertebra will fuse with iron and I'll have pains for the rest of my life, the other theres always the complication of becoming a vegetable. Plus only when i stop moving my hands and legs its when they will operate. It sucks because like you I don't like to sit, I worked my ass off all my life, very independent and now not being able to clean my house or drive my car is driving me nuts.
I'm taking glucosamine msm and condroitin, I'm noticing its helping a lot, plus will start to exercise, gonna register at water gym classes too, I'm gonna fight this as long as I can. The doc wants me to take for 4 months(Lyrica) a med for the nerve pains wich gives me a lot of the anxiety, I'm still rethinking.
I'm also considering in doing a mopfood, which consists in indentifying the culprits that makes me feel bloated, tired and with reflux. Already change the regular salt for Himalayan salt they say it's better for the blood pressure. I'm lactose intolerant so I'm also careful with gluten. My body stopped asking for meat, once in a while I eat red meat but only when he asks and I always give thanks to the animal that was sacrificed, something that I never did before. Because I live in an island (Portugal) I can find house killed animals and eggs, they are still killed with respect.
I work in very stressed environment, I feel everybody's stress, I'm in charge of delegating work and making sure it's done correctly but they do it the way they please and when something goes wrong I end up fixing it, it's frustrating. Plus having a coworker and a boss that don't help it's not good either. On a bad day I have to take an extra anti-anxiety pill, which I don't like.
To be honest Blmoon a break would feel awesome and you are right about the water, I don't like water it's a constant fight.
Thank you for sharing your life with me, it meant a lot, it's always good to know that we are not alone, and in sharing sometimes we see a light. Again, I'm so grateful for your knowledge.

@tarotnick yes she is gifted and she's not just an empath, more will come. I closed myself when I was 14 and was able to live without the gifts til the thyroid kicked in. It's a complete rollercoaster. I've found that meditation/yoga and reiki are very good to calm us down and to direct our energy plus by practicing it she will start to know how to block others/places energies. Introduce her to it, Tibetan bowls sounds are awesome, that will help too, on YouTube you can find it.
I constantly have the same problem, I often forget to protect myself, now I carry a black turmaline with me, it grounds and helps to keep bad energies away.
It's all in the mind, I'm doing my work, but missing that person that can help with this journey, to keep me positive and focus. I don't have close friends, I've chosen to walk alone because I end up drained/ disappointed with people. It has been a learning process too.
Thank you once more

@tarotnick I have both too, every 6 months I do blood checks to know if I'm on the correct pill dosage, I dunno how old your daughter is, I've been living with this since I was 24, I'm currently almost 43. It is possible to live happy with no fear with this condition, I've been there, if it wasn't for this problem I had and all that came in between, I swear to you that I would be fine.
But I let the fear took over, did what the docs said instead of what my intuition was saying and stayed put instead of exercising and moving for 9 months while the pills did their work. Now I'm free of meds, something that I knew I would but I don't know or remember how this emboly really started, I just remember that I was tired and with leg pains but I was doing leg exercises (ironic), then one night couldn't breath and was in excruciating pain. My fear/anxiety is due the pain I feel, my anguish not knowing when will this go away.
I'm getting your daughter will be fine, you are doing an awesome job with her, she will learn how to live with this. I'm getting that she needs some kind of activity that she is into it will do her so good even when she's tired.
Thank you once more, whish you the best.

@jayann Thank you for kind words, they mean a lot️

@tarotnick in Nov.2017 I almost died, did a pulmonary embolism, spent all 2018 recovering, in constant fear, at the hospital they addicted me in ansiolitics, my anxiety levels were always high and did several panic attacks in a last attempt of fixing myself end up at a shrink, got worse almost killed me, my thyroid collapsed too. Due the time spent laying down on my left side of the body my escolioses got worse, now I'm in constant pain, leg and neck mainly. When this pain surges, which happened on the Christmas night, my anxiety levels got out of control. Literally I've been thru hell last year, not only in health but emotionally due a lot of human/pet losses so important to me. Currently I'm having a hard time enjoying life and making plans, I lost the taste for everything, I don't feel depressed but more like disappointed because I've been trying and doing my best to overcome this, I see a light at the end of the tunnel lasts 2 days than it's dark again. I meditate, I do reiki, I'm an empath too, sometimes I forgot to protect myself, I was a medium maybe I still am but I feel I lost the connection. I constantly wonder what is expected from me. To be honest this emboly thing traumatized me and I can't shake it off.
I'm so sorry for making you feel my disappointment and sadness. I'm so Grateful. Thank you

Hi Bloom, hope you had a good Christmas with your loved ones and that you are feeling awesome.
Sorry to bother you with the same issue. Currently I'm off meds for the embolism I did last year, after a lot of exams and tests it was decided that I don't need them anymore and that I'm healthy. I was so happy with this diagnosis as you know blood thinners are terrible for our body. So last year for me was all about recovery, make myself stronger, flexible free of anxiety, but... the end of the year for me was terrible, I had excruciating leg and neck pain, my whole spine was blocked went to a osteopath and on New year's Eve, suddenly while watching a kids movie I started feeling my heart trembling got up and was nauseous, cold I checked the blood pressure and it was 11/10; heart beat 63 and this continued for about 2 hours, so I took a pill to help with the anxiety that was starting to flair up, lay down on my bed and half an hour before 12 the blood pressure was already 10/6 and I was feeling much better.
Since then I'm doing again anxiety attacks and heart doesn't settle.
I swear to you that I've been meditating, doing reiki, taking teas,vitamins and was getting better and now this? I'm so tired of feeling like crap, I did all the tests and no one starts suffering from the heart out of the blue and it's definitely not another blood clot coz I would be dead by now if it was. I'm also tired of hospitals and having the docs look at me like I'm crazy. Im asking for your insight because I really can't figure this out, what is that the spirit/ universe wants from me that I'm not doing?
And why I'm having such a hard time in appreciating life again?

It seems to be a good year. Thank you again