Posts made by MahoganyMystique

Emily Dickinson said fame is a bee, it has a song, it has a sting...ah too it has wings.... I say that about love.

By the way I think I was acting like a B1tch too long.... that approach is not going to work now...lol ... he was busy chasing after me before and trying to help me with my depression, but I think it became too much.... and then his job situation...

Thanks.... I noticed he was incognito once I start acting crazy... so I might send a nice email that doesn't focus on anything negative... I am ready to talk about things in a more positive light.

Thanks.... He was very sensitive and I was more analytical. It sometimes conflicted, but we still loved one another.

I really don't know how to take his "new" mood swing. He really was always there. Now it seems like i'm the emotional one and he's not. Like the roles have reversed. I'm trying to exert patience and am trying to be understanding, but it seems like he has built up such a high wall. I want to knock it down.... but he is hundreds of miles away.

I want to email him, but then again I don't... I'm really am confused.

I am a Virgo woman (8/24) who begun a relationship with a Cancer man (7/17) last year in June.

When I first met him we instantly connected. I thought that he was my soul mate, my long lost love from past lives. It seemed like we shared a special bond that would always be there.

Although we loved each other it was a difficult relationship. A quote from "A Tale of Two Cities" comes to mind... "it was the best of times, it was the worst of times..." We met over the Internet. He lived in another state. Eventually he moved in with me. It was a financial strain because he was out of work during 7 out of the 8 months we were living together. I was battling with depression and developed high blood pressure over this time period...

Monumental moments of the relationship came in October when I found out that he was writing his ex. He talked about problems we were having and asked her did she still think about their past. When I found this out I kicked him out and he went back with his mom. He said he was stressing about our relationship and he didn't know who to talk to. We eventually reconciled and he came back.

Everything seemed to be going well, that's until Valentine's Day weekend. I was upset that I didn't get a card. He didn't understand why it was important since he surprised me with a spa treatment and out to dinner (he was working for about 6 weeks now). That Sunday and Monday things were very tense in the house and it seemed like a dark presence in the house. I tried to avoid him but Tuesday morning we had a big argument and I yelled mean things at him and asked him to leave. This is the short version. We both did things that we regret.

After that he went to the airport to go home. During this time I kept calling him and he ignored me. I went to the airport to speak with him and he ignored me at the airport. He changed his number two days later (2/19) I was writing to him by email and he wrote back and said that he was confused and lost and that I hurt him more than he has ever been hurt. By 2/20 he was writing me on messenger and he was saying how he missed me and things seemed better. We talked pretty long until I fell asleep. Then I write back the next day and he says he is confused once again and he needs time. But then it seems like he would push then pull away.

This was driving me crazy. He would call me from block number. His behavior I couldn't really identify. I knew I love him and wanted to work through any problems we came across. I had a feeling that he wasn't being totally truthful with me and this was confirmed 3/15. I checked his email account and found out that he had left his mother's house and went to visit his ex (sagittarius) (3/6)(who is in a different state) the same one he was in contact with before. He was writing me by email the whole time. I was extremely upset and emailed his ex and texted her. (I wasn't nasty or anything.) Just let her know that he was emailing me while he was there with her and leading me on. Not sure what he was telling her.

I also emailed him calling him a gold digger and some other mean things that were really the voice of others. I was really acting unlike myself and didn't like it. I apologize the next day (3/16) and told him I am sorry how I addressed matters although he was wrong for what he did.

I haven't received an email from him since then. I want to email him again because I really don't want to talk to him, but I can't stand the constant rejection. Also, this hurts because this is the first time I opened up and trusted someone as much as I trusted him and now it seems like he keeps rejecting me. One of my weaknesses is the fear of rejection.

Someone called me this past Saturday from a blocked number. I don't think it was him, but don't know for sure. I am afraid to contact him by email because I think it will just open up a wound. I really think I should let it go (just because I don't know what he is thinking or doing), but he was really there for me when I needed him and it wasn't always easy for him being there for me.

Am I just being naive?

Sometimes the grass seems greener on the other side. Especially when you are going through trials and tribulations. You need to seek counseling and other methods before seeking the comfort of others. It seems like your husband has faced a very traumatic experience and the addiction may be a result of depression. Many times when someone is depressed (trust me I know) they don't realize it and the way they act out is a result of the depression.

You can try and get him to go on meds and seek counseling and if the situation is still unhealthy for you maybe you can have some time a part. But during the time a part don't rely on the comfort of others. Work on yourself and allow him some time to work on himself.

I was in a recent situation, although not married, I thought we were giving each other space to work on our own and I find out my ex is with his ex girlfriend. That was very hurtful. Just do the things the right way so in the end you will have no regrets.

I am a Virgo woman (8/24) who begun a relationship with a Cancer man (7/17) last year in June.

When I first met him we instantly connected. I thought that he was my soul mate, my long lost love from past lives. It seemed like we shared a special bond that would always be there.

Although we loved each other it was a difficult relationship. A quote from "A Tale of Two Cities" comes to mind... "it was the best of times, it was the worst of times..." We met over the Internet. He lived in another state. Eventually he moved in with me. It was a financial strain because he was out of work during 7 out of the 8 months we were living together. I was battling with depression and developed high blood pressure over this time period...

Monumental moments of the relationship came in October when I found out that he was writing his ex. He talked about problems we were having and asked her did she still think about their past. When I found this out I kicked him out and he went back with his mom. He said he was stressing about our relationship and he didn't know who to talk to. We eventually reconciled and he came back.

Everything seemed to be going well, that's until Valentine's Day weekend. I was upset that I didn't get a card. He didn't understand why it was important since he surprised me with a spa treatment and out to dinner (he was working for about 6 weeks now). That Sunday and Monday things were very tense in the house and it seemed like a dark presence in the house. I tried to avoid him but Tuesday morning we had a big argument and I yelled mean things at him and asked him to leave. This is the short version. We both did things that we regret.

After that he went to the airport to go home. During this time I kept calling him and he ignored me. I went to the airport to speak with him and he ignored me at the airport. He changed his number two days later (2/19) I was writing to him by email and he wrote back and said that he was confused and lost and that I hurt him more than he has ever been hurt. By 2/20 he was writing me on messenger and he was saying how he missed me and things seemed better. We talked pretty long until I fell asleep. Then I write back the next day and he says he is confused once again and he needs time. But then it seems like he would push then pull away.

This was driving me crazy. He would call me from block number. His behavior I couldn't really identify. I knew I love him and wanted to work through any problems we came across. I had a feeling that he wasn't being totally truthful with me and this was confirmed 3/15. I checked his email account and found out that he had left his mother's house and went to visit his ex (sagittarius) (3/6)(who is in a different state) the same one he was in contact with before. He was writing me by email the whole time. I was extremely upset and emailed his ex and texted her. (I wasn't nasty or anything.) Just let her know that he was emailing me while he was there with her and leading me on. Not sure what he was telling her.

I also emailed him calling him a gold digger and some other mean things that were really the voice of others. I was really acting unlike myself and didn't like it. I apologize the next day (3/16) and told him I am sorry how I addressed matters although he was wrong for what he did.

I haven't received an email from him since then. I want to email him again because I really don't want to talk to him, but I can't stand the constant rejection. Also, this hurts because this is the first time I opened up and trusted someone as much as I trusted him and now it seems like he keeps rejecting me. One of my weaknesses is the fear of rejection.

Someone called me this past Saturday from a blocked number. I don't think it was him, but don't know for sure. I am afraid to contact him by email because I think it will just open up a wound. I really think I should let it go (just because I don't know what he is thinking or doing), but he was really there for me when I needed him and it wasn't always easy for him being there for me.

Am I just being naive?