Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
I dont have a particular college planned out. It all depends on what state i live in after i graduate. If i stay in Oregon i will most likely go to PSU but if i move to say DC i will probably go to Galluet University or just take classes online. It al depends on where i live but i am starting to get uneasy about how uncertian my future is
Dear littlelioness, he is thankfully not the same guy i mentioned 6 months ago. That guy is happily in realtionship with a new girl. They have been goingout for quite a few months. The guy i am talking about now is giong to be 18 in about a month and a half
Thank you. After reaing all of your posts i have alot to consider. I dont know what i am going to do. I know it is wrong but even though i have no intention of ever giong out with him i still want him. I live in a house hold where i constantly have the people looking over my shoulder and telling me what to do. I think for me it is about finally doing something for myself. Not because i am forced to but because i want to. I have been looking for a job for over a year now and it seams that no matter how many applications i fill out, i can never seam to find one. any advice?
I thank everyone for their advice, especially pilot007 but there are some pionts that i want to go over. First of all i am finally starting to like this guy but i have no plans of ever going out with him. Also, call me naive but i am not to worried about him telling anyone becuase he knows if he does, word will eventually get around to his girlfriend and she will leave him. The thought of pregnacy and the "what if" is always on my mind but we do use condoms. Another thing is, yes i know im "sharing another womans VAGINAL juices" and as gross as it sounds it will be the same with any guy I will sleep with in my future unless he is a virgin but the chances of getting one of those is slim and not something i would go out of my way for. oh and another thing, I am turning 18 in october and even though i will be a senior next year im not planing on going to prom. I know everyone says it is a must for highschoolers but it is so expensive and i dont get why it is so important. Maybe by the time it roles around next year and i have a job i will have changed my mind but i dont know.
I dont know why i do what i do. maybe its because i have pushed my emotions so far away to protect myself that i cant read them anymore or maybe i have just learned not to care. I know that is no excuse for my actions and there is nothing that i can do to fix what i did. Growing up, my dad was always out of the picture. everycouple years i will get a call from him or one of his kids but that is it. I have always lived with my mom but she has never had very good taste in partners although it doesnt help that she is an only child and so am i so we both have grown up very sheltered and overly protected. Sometime i want with every fiber in my body to rebel but i am afraid to hurt her because we are pretty much all each other has. what should i do?
Thanks pilot007. this gives me alot to think about. There is more to the storey that i think i should share though. Im not proud to admit it but i am seventeen and in highschool, part doesnt bother me to much. its the fact that he has a girlfriend of 8 months and i have no regret for what i did. What should i do?