Hougandave: Thank you for taking the time. Yeah, I'm definitely sure I'm a Pisces. After reading your answer and then my question again, I don't believe I framed my wording right. I do understand death and accept it.....at the hand of another with deliberate intent is something I do not. The death was not my focus so much (I can't change that or know why it happened) as it was the new gifts it brought (a part of my grandfather he left behind to me....he also left a part to my brother). I will take your advice to stop telling myself I need to understand when these new things come in. It's a good way to let the answers find me. I just wish I could quiet hearing and seeing because I don't know how to handle that yet (which was the original question I was attempting to ask). For now, I'll just stop seeking answers and be patient. Thank you again.

AMEN TO THAT KELDJORAN!!!! : )

Houngandave: You're right....i knew, but not at the level I should....some things don't come in crystal clear and I never commit to a thought I'm not 100% sure of...I see it as I'm not meant to receive it all.....those items lead me to reach out to those more advanced than myself...to which you answered. : ) I recently had a whole new surge of advancement of both old and new abilities accompanying a huge loss in my family that I can't quite get a hold on or lock down how to use or what the purpose is (which I feel there is one)...I could go on but I'm sure with you I don't have to....would you have any advise on how best to tackle this?

hougandave: even though your reply was not directed towards me, your advice is soothing, insightful and eloquently put....without meaning to do so, you've helped me. It's almost like I was meant to read it, because it reflects a few inner things I've been trying to figure out. Thank you.

Hi Crabbylove. I too feel an uneasiness from this past full moon. In fact, I discussed it with a few friends who share gifts as well. (everyone feels it but no one has sensed the answer yet) I was wondering if it had any connection to it's nearness to Halloween, but for a long time I've felt like something's coming and the overwhelming feeling that I NEED to be further along in my development than I am to be ready. I feel behind and pressed to unlock to see behind the veil completely. You are not a loon...and if you are then you are not alone...I can vouch for at least 5 of us who have had the same feelings as you. I keep asking the same question, if those of us with the gift are all sensing something and we are connected with this common bond of abilities even though strangers, how big is it going to be? I too am curious to know if anyone out there has been blessed with the answer.

Good Morning astrodame. You know you made some pretty darn good points there. I'm not sure how ready I am to use and dispose...haha....but changing my mindset on being ready for a long term relationship is excellent. I think seeing each guy as Mr. Right Now and having fun might be the way to go. It's a way to enjoy them for what they are at the moment and easier to let them head out the door when it's time. Everyone comes with a lesson and Mr. Right won't go anywhere. I like how you described your gift as drawing them like bees...makes you a flower! I don't usually put it out there about what I can do (except here where it's more accepted) but people DO gravitate don't they? (I'm glad I'm not as big as a planet though...would look odd on my 5 ft frame...haha) How many times do you hear "It's like you are reading my mind?" or "You always seem to know just what to say?" Do you get perfect strangers walking away after telling you their life story? It's not that I mind at all, but it's odd and an honor to seem to radiate that kind of trust from people. Sometimes though people don't want to REALLY hear what I sense which makes it hard and sometimes I know more than I would like to (or even more than they would like me to). I read somewhere that an empath can only read what the other subconsciously or advertantly allows. It would be unethical to invade someone's private thoughts and feelings without their knowledge or permission. As far as not being able to make heads or tails of my own life, it's usually only in the romantic department....probably because the "ego" gets in the way. Maybe a lighthearted look at it, and knowing the right one is on his way will help calm the love craving beast within. Thank you for the perspective!

Hey there Rikku226! I could have written that message myself. You just KNOW when it's time to retreat for alone time to reflect, get your bearings and recharge. For me, it's a chance to meditate and sift through and shed all the emotions of others I've collected and to determine what my own mind is thinking. Sometimes I find it's not thinking too much of anything! haha Although sometimes it's a chance to get away from the chaos of the day. I'm glad you are back. I've put a lot of thought in hoping things are working out better for you. I can certainly give you my experiences with being an Empath. From what I've found, not every empath works in the same way or have added things to make them unique. I have a few extra gifts that enhance what I am capable of (when it's turned on). Sometimes I have what I call my Blah days where I can't sense my way out of a paper bag. I don't know what you'd like to know but I'll be happy to share. Or not, I'm happy to also chat about the day to day good, bad and ugly 2!

I don't really know if love addict would totally apply but there may be a message or two in there that would do me some good. I do WANT the love that I deserve though. What happens to me is that I go with the flow and let them know my interest but hold back until they start to express feelings and wanting more etc. So then when I go with THAT new flow, they go with it for a bit and then they are gone. I don't want more than they are willing to give, but I'm tired of those who express they want to give but don't really mean it. MEAN WHAT YOU SAY. I suppose that brutal honesty isn't always what I need but I find it easier to get over than empty promises. I recover really well when a guy says "Hey, I like you but this isn't working for me." THAT I GET! LOL!

I don't mind fixing problems and helping others with my gift. I feel it would be misuse of the gift if I didn't. I do believe that I also tend to think along your lines that I will eventually meet someone who cares as much as I do and be my rock. I'm learning to be independent enough to be my own rock. I just have a hard time getting past lonely sometimes.

You really did help keldjordan. I wrote down the link you suggested to check at a later time (when I can really have the time to devote to reading it properly). But what mostly helped was putting into words what I feel about being a water sign and how it relates to feeling things deeply and taking them to heart. I'm very self critical to wonder what it is that's wrong with ME. Whereas sometimes it has been me, I'm learning that not every reason is apersonal attack against me. Hey, I'm a Pisces Empath....I want to fix EVERYTHING! haha I've recently accepted that bellyaching about heartache and wanting for what's lost will never fix anything for me. I must learn from it and press on. Things that are meant to be will always turn around. As we are both on the journey to changing our perspectives and approach, I'm here for ya and I wish you all the luck in the world. We may not be perfect, but we are perfect for someone out there!

Hello cslow. I know what you mean about finding someone sincere in the heart. I always mean what I say and it would be nice to find someone who can be so honest. I don't begrudge anyone for NOT wanting something more, but most don't cut to the chase. I want to thank you for sharing your story with us.

I really gain a lot with everyone's advice and perspectives and experiences. Thank you for sharing with me!

Thank you CancerLeo. I hope that I didn't give the impression in my first entry that I actively pursue love with any man that crosses my path. I don't encounter many that I experience that spark of interest for. I do however, tend to go with the "hey what if I was in some kind of relationship with this man" (to quote you) when I do finally find myself liking someone after a few conversations or dates. It's a trait of mine that I am struggling to change, because I HATE it. My expectations tend to let me down. I've done a lot of self reflection on how I'm coming across and your advice to just flow with life is how I'm working with it. I know people come in and out of your life with different lessons to take from it....not everyone is meant to stay. I've decided to enjoy being alone and happy with myself. I thought maybe this way I wouldn't put so much stock in someone else to make my life feel complete. It's a pretty good life even when it gets a tad lonely. : ) Thank you for taking the time. You were pretty accurate.