Thank you rochella!! I don't know how good of a role model i am to my kid;s. I mean i kept men at bay so i could focus on my children and now i'm 40 i don't know how to date or get out there. It's just easier to deal with the married man!! My first trip out into the world again ended up worst then before. A old friend came back to town and thought he wanted to settle down here again, told me i was the one who got away the whole nine, then when i opened up, he retreated and is actually got ingaged over the holiday's to his longtime girlfriend. That was a crushing blow, but i didn't call the ex so i am proud of my self,but how long can i do this? only time will tell. I dont think i have good patience, the only thing i have done was keep my kid;s out of trouble and manage to get them off into the world.I'm not good in love, but i haven't give up either!! Pray for me and whilw your at it pray for my children to...