Dalia, as you predicted, he is emailing me and finally has called after three weeks. I did not take his call but I read his email and for a short, very short period of time I considered reconciling with him and entertained his offer for a motorcycle ride and a weekend away, uh but only when he returns to town from NY, oh and he is not available to see me till then because he is having dinner Saturday with a good friend and his wife. He once said to me that I would always be his first choice in matters like dinners, so I can probably assume he is taking his "Dear, Dear Friend" as second choice, alarms go off, and what about the rest of the week? Hmm he is retired and free to move around all he wants, but he is not at my house on any regular basis.
I did respond to his email, nicely, then I thought about what I want in a relationship and what he wants in a relationship, and how I had been willing to have a relationship on his level, but no more. It has been a year and many people I know/knew have passed on to heaven or are on their last days of life right now. I emailed him that I would not continue in this relationship and our wants and needs are not the same, that I will have what I want for a relationship, specifically trust and honor for the other persons feelings and giving the same respect that you receive, or I will be single period, so I told him goodbye
Now he has sent me a response that is so long it is a google document, yeah really, I scanned over it and as is predictable he brings up my son and how I am the one with fear issues, huh, no, and Lord knows what else, I did not read it. Now he is emailing me with comments about our Governor Sanford, and how he is the one that I should be suspicious of, uh, I reminded him his affair was with a "Dear Dear Friend". Now he is saying that my wildest imagination is making me think such things about him, so I called him "Hon", like his "Dear Dear Friend" does, he did not respond. I am trying to be strong and not respond further, now he is sending me the Colbert comedy show regarding the Governor.
Does anyone know how to block email in gmail, I can block chat, but I don't know how to do the email. I am a nice girl and very forgiving, gullible at times, and I do not want to fall prey to this man any longer, but I am weak and if there is an email there I have to read it. If I don't get the email then I don't care.
Thank you all for your comments, they have really helped me to stay strong, and focus on a new business, I am a Wedding Officiant in Myrtle Beach, and I have started to pursue the possibilities on a full time level, I love seeing people in happy relationships, it gives me hope for the future of my relationships.
Again thank you all for your support and friendly comments, I did not believe that there was something wrong with my thinking, and I am so lucky that you have all confirmed that I am justified in having the feelings that I have and you have given me the strength to focus on other areas of my life, perhaps now love will come along when I am not looking for it.
Thanks again, Charline