Katie, it's so long to tell and gosh so many details that I feel I've known him forever. It's actually exactly what he says now, that he feels that way. And you know what I told him when he said that? I said you know dear, I feel I don't know much about you and he was so satisfied that I find him mysterious:) See, it's another common trait of cancers and aquas. We love to leave an impression that we are mysterious.
Anyway, this is what happens between us still ---BIG MYSTERY, for me and I feel he's fed by my MYSTERY too lol
There is an update though, he moved about 150 miles away. And told me he knew he was going to do that but was not sure he would. So, seems that was mostly the reason for breakup as he couldn't see himself in a long distance relationship.
So, since then, we're talking every single day, and every day talking on yahoo for hours before sleep and everyday texting me when I'm not online. He's not seeing anyone, he's always telling this to me when I say that I might go on a date if I find a good guy. But he never wants to sound jealous as that would show me he cares and still has plans with me. And that again would make him sound committed which he is probably afraid the most.
So, you see a lot of communication and he's already like part of my llife, better said my "internet life".
With all this he never disappeared, I did once for couple days. He texted me on my phone both days like 4 or 5 times, until I finally replied. Things are pretty much the same all the time, except what I see as "mood swings". If I'm right you can notice them even communicating online only. I can sense his coldness when he has a bad mood. And I soak them and my good mood switches to bad mood...lol I became a Cancer myself
He is a great friend, always asking what I do, and initiating contact almost always. And don't everyone think he's interested? Nah, he never clarifies that. I don't know if he ever would go back to having a relationship with me. I once was even thinking I could move to where he lives now as I have an opportunity to find a job related to my field there. He seemed excited when I mentioned that, but again never clarified that we could both start the relationship if I was closer. Uncertainty kills me figuratively but certainly kills my feelings.
So, here I am now, at the point that I should keep him as a friend only, and go date another men. Actually, I'm talking to a Libra man, we will see each other soon. And I'm afraid that tomorrow or soon enough my feeling switch back again and I'll ruin what just started with the libra man for the sake of my lovely Cancer to just go through same soap opera for another couple months.