Hi there...I'm new. I apologize in advance for my ramblings; here goes (oh, don't worry - I swear I'm mentally stable - LOL):
I usually do well with readings for myself and friends when I"m not emotionally involved. I am so confused at this point about the results I've been getting for a current situation. If someone could help, I would be IMMENSELY appreciative. Perhaps you could even draw some cards for me and interpret without my emotions getting involved.
I just need to know if this man sees me as more than a hard worker (which he has complemented me on several times) and if our purpose together is more than just a mentor/friendship. I keep getting so many pentacles in regards to this situation.
8 of pentacles- pursuit? or just that I'm the hard worker here?
I've received the Emperor and Hierophant as the outcome when generally inquiring into our situation on several occasions. 3 of pentacles, too (recognition for hard work in our professional setting?).
I'm so frustrated at this point and know I can't continue to examine this situation on my own via my own interpretation at this time. Way too confused...just need to hear other's thoughts and take a breather here. Overall, I just feel like an immature high schooler "does he like me?". LOL I seriously feel ridiculous about how much energy I've put towards thinking about him. Don't worry I"m starting a new internship this summer which will keep me focused on other things
I had a professional reading the other day and the reader was optimistic that I should pursue this, however timing was currently off. (Quite obvious that timing is MAJOR here due to my interest's current professional situation and that he currently owns a house with someone). I am not looking for an affair, but would like a casual dating relationship when he ISN'T attached in the future. I can wait (and date others in the meantime...don't worry I'm not holding my breath) because I believe there is a spark/connection between us and that there must be a reason why he would act differently towards me (cold) around certain people, when he is so warm, friendly and flirty when we would find the time to be alone. Of course, this leads me to wonder if I simply stroke his ego (he is about 13-15 yrs older), although I can assure you that I am not the type of woman to be suggestively seductive or anything like that; we've been professional but our eye contact always seems quite intense. Right now, the cards have warned about the ramifications of an affair, which I could never conceivably do....could this be tied in with his side of perceiving the situation perhaps? Disappointing, if so....I've just felt that we have a mutual respect for one another and can't believe that he'd do that.
These are some of the cards read yesterday in a professional, in-person reading:
Why did this man enter my life:
Past - Ace of Swords
Present - Six of Pentacles
Future - The Emperor
Wouldn't the above cards fall in line that I had to work with him professionally to learn new things? Is 6 pents, just being like - woah, balance, girl! right now you need to realize this guy is just a really nice mentor for you to rely on in the future? Although, the emperor in the future seems strange if this is just work related. He has had direct authority over me in the past and while he doesn't technically right now over the summer, he (sort of) will for another year until I'm done there.
Right now, we probably won't see each over the summer. And here is another crazy obstacle that makes me think I'm delusional that I can even hope that our connection could every develop: he currently lives with someone (they own a house together....with a mortage...in this economy!). He has made statements here and there that all is not well on the home front, like they "tolerate" each other and that he doesn't believe that love lasts forever...just a few years (they've lived together for 3ish) Maybe I'm naive, but I don't feel like he was sharing those things to plant seeds for infidelity, I feel like he is genuinely unhappy and won't be in that situation forever.
Keeping all of that in mind, here are some more cards that were selected at the reading:
His emotional state : two of swords
Me right now: high priestess (my intuition is just wavering now...I wish I could trust it, but there is nothing to trust right now because I keep going back and forth. Yes he is attracted, or no, i'm just someone he admires. Or yes, he is attracted but nothing can come out of this. Or no, he only wants an affair. UGH I dream about him all the time(not romantically, just similarly to how we used to interact...flirty and friendly) which makes me even more confused. Last night I had a dream he had too much to drink and that I was so concerned he was embarrassing himself in front of colleagues. I got him away from everyone and he just poured out everything that was going on in his life. I woke up.
Him right now: four of cups
Is he considering the situation? : Queen of Cups
Next step for him: Judgement
Is he going to come forward to me: Three of cups (couldn't this be about a work related activity, though? ahhhh lol)
Are they going to sell their house? Ace of Wands
When? Hanged man
Should I reveal my feelings to him at an appropriate time: The Sun (I just can't believe this one....sorry seems so selfish unless he goes first...but maybe it makes sense assuming he goes first?)
Has he fully let go of her yet? The Devil...? the reader also said it could be her that has a hold on him because of manipulation/finances, etc....but I don't know.
What is the universe telling me about this overall? The Magician. The reader said this was positive if this is what I want.
Has he tried to reveal himself to me in the past about his attraction? Six of cups (yeah he can be young acting); clarifier three of cups (Can't both of these cards simply mean he was just being friendly...rather than flirting and subtle innuendo as I kind of wondered he was doing?)
Should I pursue this? 6 of pentacles....reader said this was positive that I should? hmmm.
The ultimate outcome that this man wants with me if nothing was holding him back = 10 of cups (can't this relate to a solid, mutual friendship?)
How he thinks he could get there (to 10 of cups) = Past - 5 Swords, Present = Judgement, Future - 8 Pentacles. 5 of swords doesn't seem to apply to a mentor relationship.
Thank you so much for reading all of this! I feel so weird that we (the reader and I) got into their current situation, but the reader suggested it. Over all, he felt that the cards correlated the decline of their relationship. (Which wasn't a surprise based on things I had been told)
I should mention that we have never been involved, but used to talk whenever we could get alone. (The setting made it complicated to spend additional time together). He used to say things that I thought were subtle ways of letting me know he was interested, after all he couldn't come right out and say it due to his position. However, maybe these "subtleties" fall in with the 6 of cups and three of cups? He did act childish at times, so maybe he was just being really friendly. Overall, there was just a great energy between us....a connection....but maybe just a friendship/mentor connection? We have fun when we talk and are both enthusiastic in regards to similar interests.
I just feel delusional at this point that I've been interpreting the situation from every angle, like yes - there is a connection here and yes we both greatly admire and respect each other....but where can it go? The only thing I know for sure is that he likes me as a friend and ultimately, that is acceptable, too. We "get" each other and it's so hard to find another person like that.
Thanks for listening to me rant! LOL I feel so delusional after reading this over...it's all just so "far out". I'd just love your input.