Gee u folks aren’t stupid. Don't be so hard on yourself. Every human in the universe has a talent. You need to work on that area. So what! If you missed the bus and haven’t finished school, you will and can survive. One cannot undo the past. Close the chapter of the past and take it as a lesson learnt and that you won’t make that mistake for your kids.
Enjoy today and this moment with your family and look ahead. Does your husband prefer being his own boss? Why not start something of your own, start small; you need to make a list of things that you always wanted to do. Maybe something might pop up in that list.
You are both blessed with love which is very scarce these days. Cherish it and four awesome kids enjoy each moment with them. Think of families who cannot have children.
Think Positive and positive will happen.
Good Luck dear.