HI Jen, A pleasure to 'meet' you : )
Please feel free to ask what you wish. I'm here to learn and see different points of view.
He usually works weekends right now or is spending time with his kids. He has come over a few times on the weekend though. He has said when things slow down we will do more together.
With things still being new I wait and watch & ask questions of him. Time can answer a lot as do actions verse words. in my opinion.
it seems every time we spend time together I learn a little more about him. I can't help but wish for a crystal ball at times to know whats truth and lies. So much I've read on here relates to our Virgos lying, being unfaithful, etc. that doesn't do much for our Cancer way of thinking.
He has told me he knows he needs affection, to feel needed, Work then family are his top priorities, He takes a long time to decide on things.
I find I take all this in and store it in my mental box of notes. lol I know.. silly perhaps but honest.
he has met most of my family just from coming over. His family lives in another state except 2 of his 3 kids. which live here. I have met none of his.. as of yet. I feel the dating site thing with him is an ego boost. I can't tell you how many men I know flirt online married or not. (shakes head)
I like your thoughts about the journal because I am the same way. I write the good and the bad. I am happy to say so far there is more good than bad emotions posted in my journal. I was hurt this last week and I am the type of person that I have to think it through before I can approach it whoever I am feeling this way about. I might go into that a bit later. I am still processing my feelings & thoughts.
Yes, I know I do hold back some, letting a little more out each time. If a man is to love me I want him to love me for who I am. Not some front I put up. Do you ever feel if we let all of our emotions out at once we will overwhelm people?
( a little History) The last man I dated for 3 months was a LDR.. and a Leo.. Boy did I fall hard and fast. we talked all day, everyday, Video chatted,etc. He talked about my daughter and I moving to where he lived. All the things we would do together. Was even looking into houses, made everything sound wonderful. Then when I had starting working on arrangements to come visit him..he ended it with me. I found out after the fact.. he had never told anyone about me. I have never felt like such a dirty little secret. My X husband (Cancer) was a very good liar & turned out quite unfaithful. I found many dating & adult sites he had been on after we seperated.
So my point (I know I have one somewhere in all this)... I have some bad trust issues, especially in those areas.
In order to know if anything is meant to be.. we have to trust, right? I do battle myself a lot in these areas.
for now I think about what I have learned & see..
If things don't change when his work slows down. I'll know I'm not important to him.
This wouldn't be an issue if I didn't feel strongly for him.