Miraculously, today I felt like a weight was lifted from my shoulders. I spent Sunday night meditating and reading a few inspirational passages to remind myself that this too shall pass. I went to bed last night reminding myself that he did me a favor in removing himself from my life before I wasted more time with him. I stopped expecting answers on Sunday-48 hours after I caught him when he still hadn't contacted me. Regardless of his reason, the result is the same and I am better off without him.
It came to me today what Adrian's purpose was in my life. I agree that his role was to expose something I needed to address within me in order to better prepare me for the RIGHT man. I am too trusting and need to learn patience-even if I thought I moved slowly with him compared to men in the past. At any rate, I no longer hurt and crave answers. I am suddenly at peace and honestly feel its HIS LOSS, as I was nothing but good to him.
SweetGem, I am sorry you are going through such turmoil due to a man as well. I hope you find the peace to let him go knowing you deserve to be loved the RIGHT WAY, and learn to accept nothing less. That is what I am working on too.
I can tell you one things I did to help get to a better place emotionally with my situation: Lie in bed once you get ready to go to sleep and breath deeply as relaxe. Say this in your head as you inhale and exhale slowly, "
, I release you to the universe with exhale. Every breath I take in restores me and makes me whole." Imagine your feelings for him leaving your heart as you exhale and imagine the love, trust, and whatever you invested in him returning to you with every breath you take in.
May sound corny, but it has helped me. Best of luck-