Thank you Shuabby. I am from europe but now live in NZ and am thinking of moving to Australia for a few years before moving back to europe permanently. You are right my last job depleted my life force and made me depressed - I didn't fit in from the begining and stayed longer than I should have as I planned to leave as soon as my property sold which it didn't so by Sept I felt so diminished that I went in one day and resigned. Since then I haven't been able to get a job but I am hopeful to get one soon. Thank you for providing a sale date for our property, March 2011 - its helpful to have an indication that it will eventually sell.
I appreciate your offering of hope, I really hope that I can feel joy and enhusiasm again. I feel that I have aged 20 years in the past 18months, my brain feels slow and dull and I feel like I am wasting my life.
Thank you all for your kind words they are very much appreciated.