I hope some one can tell me what I am doing wrong. Male, born 2/13/1958 6:10AM, Blyn, Wa. USA I started out being outgoing and very social and hung out with my older brothers until I was accused of spying for my mom when I was 4. A few months later I recieved my first concushin (sp?) and lesson about the family hiarchy. A few months later, my second reenforcement came from a brother born 12/1/1948 and he has barely controlled his anger with me since, in fact the latest was during a Christmas eve phone call to wish them a merry Xmas.
At the end of 5th grade, I stood up to my friends that cornered this really irritating guy after school. I had nothing against 1 on 1 fighting but no unfair fights. They backed down but it cost me all of my friends, and I wish it had never come up.That was in June of 1969. In 1970, my favorite brother in law scammed me out of 3 months pay while I lived on beans and bread. When I came home in Sept. my Moms first reaction was extremely neg. A year later I could no longer talk to people. A hypnotist saved my life at 19 and I had the happiest year of my life, until A taures lady stepped on my heart with highheels on my 21rst B/day.10 yrs. later I was still recovering when A one night stand with a libra looking for an income knocked me on my butt. Four months later I was looking at a paternity lawsuit and had my first pancreatic attack. I have had debilitating chronic pancreatitis since April, 1991. In 1994 I fell in love with a Virgo, born 9/19/1960, we had a daughter on 4/14/95 and in a bout of post-partum, she moved out of my life the same day. My mom, having disowned me in 1985, died 2 weeks later. By Xmas, I was evicted and living in my 85 toyota corolla with my dog.
I grew up on the wrong side of the tracks, my mom kept me socially isolated from my family, my church wrongly accused me of crimes and tried to have me sent to Juvie at 15, nobody my age was allowed to be friends with me, (small town) I have spent my last penny trying to get my pancreas fixed and on Jan. 12th, is my last attempt. After that I will lose my insurance because after expences I have 210 to 265 dollars a month to live on.My rent and insurance just went up. oh, i have a 1/4/11 trial date for assault because I was scammed for $800 last March. I hit the guy to keep him from hitting me, not hard, just to keep him back. But he started screaming he was hit and drew a crowd. And finallly, last winter, I found out I was seriosly in love with a married friend. She doesn't know and I will not tell her.
The time of my birth is a semi educated guess, my birth was recorded 70 days later. out of all this can any one devine my birth time, and maybe a reason for my life to be constantly under some sort of attack? And can things ever get better for me?
I'm sorry that this situation happened to you. I have also had situations where my mental health was compromised. Now I try to work through these issues with my therapist. I also use CBD capsules for calming and it helps me. Therefore, I can also advise you on such supplements. With best wishes.