You are beautiful and it is common for a beautiful woman not to think that she is beautiful because she has low self esteen due to the abuse that has been inflicted upon her. Your husband wasnt your soul mate he was a guy you used to leave your abuusive environment. The touch you felt onyour back from the stranger woke up your deep seated need for love and attention that you crave. You have craved attention as a child and those needs have not totally been fulfilled. Please don't get LUST and LOVE confused.When you didn't return affection or acceptance to the stranger he began to pull back due to rejection. I'M NOT SURE ABOUT THE STRANGER I know for a fact that if you pray a prayer and ask God to reveal your soul mate to you he will. Be willing to accept his choice. Believe me you will know. You are wounded and youi need spiritual healing. ASK AND YE SHALL RECEIVE.