it still hurts no matter what, he lied he cheated, maybe when he told me not to come over to his house unless I was told to I should of thought something then, he asked me not to see anyone else, but it was ok for him to do what he wanted, then I was the bad person because I told the renter what was going on, so he blamed me for the renter moving out the very next day, but the week before he said the renter was accusing him of being with his wife and was moving out, but it was still my fault, he works for a refinery and my brother works there too, and he knows my brother, and I thought I had finally found the man who i could spend my life with, then after all of this happened a few months ago I found out he got married while I was seeing him, maybe that is why I did not see him for months, his wife is now in prison for several DWI'S, and he is now divorcing her, he never gave me his home number but I did find it out, he has now changed his numbers, he hurt me and I am sure he hurts others, he is 59 years old and lies and cheats, and it seems he does it to everyone, but no matter I loved him with all my heart and he tore it apart, I want this pain to go away

for three years I was with a man, I thought he actually cared about me, he asked me not to see anyone else, when we were together he treated me good, then there were times he did not answer his phone, would turn his phone off, did not return my calls, when he said we would be doing something together, he did not show up, call, answer his phone, well this last summer we were out on the motorcycle going to different bars to get a map signed off for a benefit, we had to go to 108 bars all over Minnesota and Wisconsin, the day of the benefit came and he called in the morning to say he had to work, I asked him if I could get a map because I might still want to go to the benefit, he said he would call me back, well at 3:30 I decided to go to the benefit even after I did not hear from him, first I stopped at a bar In the town he lives in, then I decided to drive by his house, both cars were there and I knew he did not ride the motorcycles to work, so when I got to the benefit I looked around and did not see his bikes, so I thought I was wrong to think anything, then around 5:30 he called , he said he was still at work had to be there another few hours, said he was going to stop by my place to drop off a map, well i told him I was already at the benefit, he said he guessed he could not stop over, I asked him what he was going to do when he got off of work, he said he was going home, we hung up and a half an hour later he showed up at the benefit, he said lets talk, we talked for a bit, then he said this is awkward, he brought someone else with him, he said he asked her two months before, he said he wasn't interested in her at all, he asked me to leave before I got drunk and got more upset, as I had tears running down my face I said I going to get another beer, I got so upset when I seen her rubbing his back, I started something, then I found out this woman he was with was his renters wife, the week before the benefit when I was with him at his house making him a steak dinner that I had gone to the store and bought, he said his renter was accusing him of being with his wife, why did he say that then show up at the benefit with her, he tore my heart out, he also lied about his age, he said he was born in 1954, which would of made him three months older than me, I found out he was born in 1950, how many times did he say he had to work and that was another lie, it has been 6 months now since this happened, it still hurts so bad, I thought he cared for me, I still love him, I plan on going over to talk to him to find out why he hurt me like he did, my children never liked him, thought he treated me like crap, why did he hurt me, I did everything for him, things I have never done for anyone else, I want this pain to go away, but at the same time I still love him so much, can anyone help me