I was born an empath and as a child I cried a lot not knowing why. I got punished for crying for "no reason". I was very passive growing up. I had lucid dreams, I knew things, and when I tried to share with my family it was "you were just asleep". I didn't know my mom also was psychic but due to religious beliefs, she tried to shut it down. Over the years, I opened up more and tried to keep it on a "lighter" side. My children were raised around it but as adults, they didn't want to "hear" it..unless they needed information of course. It's not a topic that is open for discussion. My kids give me a list of "do's and don'ts" when I am around their friends, as do my grandchildren. My family comes to me for a "reading" or to get my "opinion" and they are paying closer attention to me.Especially after I diagnosed my brother in law and my sister. My abilities have florished over the years and most of the time I just "listen" to my "inner self". I work as a psychiatric nurse (37+ years). My co-wokers have knowledge of my abilities and have seen my abilities in action. (I still get letters from people I have done healing on.) But my co-workers will not and have not, invited me nor included me in any activities they may hold. They will come to me for advice, want me to "scan" them, give them "freebees"...but will not include me. Since I was a child, I have been called everything from a witch to an angel (but never a weirdo) The most profound time for me was at a hypnotherapy convention when I "unknowingly" read correctly (100% accuracy) the energy off of an article I could not see but only feel. I cried...realizing I wasn't crazy! That validation was so important to me. I called family and friends to share my good news! The response I got was "we knew that", "so, you already new that". I feel "different", not connected, lonely, and I pretty much stay away from people more than I should. It's gotten to where even out in public, people start talking about their problems to me and they approach ME! I get praised for my knowledge and abilities as they walk away leaving me totally alone.
I have also been a Realtor and with 100% accuracy, read the energy in troubled houses..I have my own Hypnotherapy business that just doesn't seem to get off the ground. I do massages and sometimes it get's weird and I have had dead people channel thru me...I have gotten "visions" off the client I am working on....I have had "visions" in my head when IMing people with 100% accuracy.
I am an outgoing fun person who laughs alot when I am around people (ya have to be in my line of work) appropriately of course...and I am the brunt of a lot of jokes..and I laugh...but it still hit's me at the core level of my being...I know I have helped countless people...but it truly is a very lonely existence. People are afraid of me...afraid I will reveal something about them they don't want anyone to know...and I have never done that.
My one grand daughter is very psychic (saw this in her when she was only 14 months) She too was an empath that cried alot. I worked with her to acknowledge it and learn how to separate what was "her stuff" vs someone elses. She is 20 years old now and my daughter recently told me that she said "I am having weird stuff like MoeMoe and it scares me".
In my mind, I was told one time (when I was feeling sorry for myself) "Psychic's are God's Angels on earth. To hurt a Psychic is to hurt the God Source. It is your job to teach Unconditional Love, not receive it. We will always be here to comfort you and catch you".
I thought to myself....."That sucks..I don't want this assignment".
Is being Psychic a gift?? People that don't have those abilities seem to be much happier.
Re-reading this sound's like I am depressed....depression is anger turned inward..no, not depressed....just very sad for the human race.