LIGHTEN UP!!!!! Your intensity would scare anyone away. . I'm a Taurus and my daughter's father is a Cancer. He deserted us when she was 2, and never looked back and we were together for 10 years!! The war has changed him (your Taurus) 4-ever! He's a different man now. You have to grow-up too! Men want to enjoy life and relationships, don't freak or do the 20 question thing, just BE!
Have you done your chart? What's your Moon and Ascending signs? What are his?? You have to know them and read the horoscopes for those signs as well as your Astrological sign.
My sister was a Cancer, and her husband was a Taurus. He left her, she "found" someone that killed her 22 years ago, she was 29. Her estranged husband overdosed 6 years ago around the aniversary of her death. Life is hard, and SERIOUS. Grow up fast or leave that man alone. Listen to your inner voice for the right thing to do from here on.
I wish you the best and pray that you go-up and remember there called "first" loves for a reason, that is there will be more. He was your first, not your last. Margie-Ct.