Does anyone know where the model Agyness Deyn found the man that changed her name for her, they say change your name .change your life, so i would be interested in finding him and seeing which name he thought suited me ,if it was better than the one i have now,

i know her life changed 100% as soon as her name changed,

of course you may say it was luck she was found,as she is beautiful,and clean living ...so a great role model for younger girls.

I also did read a book, the name you were born to have, that said you are named your birth name for a reason, so there are many different thoughts on the matter,

but if anyone knows the chaps website , i would be very grateful,

thank you .xx

Hello Lisa,

Thank you so much for taking the time to answer me,it seems our lives are more alike ,than i like to mention,

I am usually the strong one, helping everyone else,but i am going down and feel like a sinking ship, this is not only scarey,but i'm so confused,

I am in a lot of pain from so many operations on my stomach, so to have mental pain and the physical,its wearing me down,

i NEVER have wriiten to any forum before,this is my first.

I havnt been online for a while,but reading your words, and your offer of healing is so kind of you,

My little cat was my life ,and it was the aniversary of his death on fri, he gave me so much love, i thought i couldnt get another animal, but i did think today,maybe!!

I am trying to move, well have been trying for over 2 yrs,but nothing as yet, so i should see where i end up, as wouldn't want to have somewhere animals are not allowed,

animals are so loyal,

I thought the man i was dating was a good man,but it was just sex for him,i didnt see it, which is unlike me,

I have now lost all of my friends,just because one heard that i was abused as a child of 3 until i was 15, as they all have children, friends said they would rather i wasnt around them,that killed me inside,i wouldnt even kill the hoards of ants in my garden, and wouldnt ever give anyone the pain i suffered,i feel i want to unzip this body and walk out of it, and find a painfree and happier body,step in and zip it back up!! if only !

Everything is being chipped away, i understand that and why, but it seems there is never going to be anything to replace all i have lost, i worry about writing too much that i will look and feel weak,so i will close now, bless you for sending me healing,you are very kind,also that you have found your soul mate that you love and he too loves you ,i wish you all the luck and love and light ..God bless Lisa,.xx

Hello everyone,

I want to thank everyone that posted on my topic,

it was my first !!

I can't tell you how reading all your posts,has helped me,THANK YOU !

My little cat of 16 yrs sadly had to be put to sleep a few weeks ago, he was like my "fur child" as i am unable to have children, so that did take me lower than i ever knew possible,

but on reading all your lovely posts, it has helped me, i really did think i was going mad, thought i must be evil for friends to drop off the face of the earth, that i had for many yrs, i thought of my friends as my family, as i only have one niece in the USA,

had told one friend i was abused from the age of 3 till 15 and that is why i have had to have 30 operations on my tummy,she then told everyone we knew, and even tho i always looked after their children weekends, so they could have a rest, i was told not to go near ANY of them or the family again,

i would NEVER hurt an ant let alone put the same pain onto a child as i had,

so..followed by other sad situations,

I'm lucky i don't feel lonely, just alone,

Operations not going as planned,having two men hold me by gun point,all but one friend has gone,for the most insane reasonsmuch more, drama,drama,drama,

I wanted to say good bye to all this pain physically and mentally,i am not one to talk about how i feel, i am usually the one that others come to, and i always pick myself up brush myself down and get on with life,

past months i can't do that....

i feel all the people that opened up and shared their lives with me on here, new faceless friends,(as we cant see what we all look like)

but you ALL have helped me, i have tried meditation, and couldn't get the hang of it, but i AM going to try again,until i get there,

bless you all,my fellow crabs

You will never know how you have helped me,to believe life will get better, i know one door opens as one closes, just can't find the door at the moment, but i am sure i will.soon.

again, God bless you all, Gabi xxx

Hi

Is there any other crabs (cancer) finding that their life is being turned upside down ..the old life is being replaced by everything new... or should i say the beginnings.of the new life...

everything i thought i had a hold on...is leaving my life .no matter how hard i try to hold on to the tried and trusted, ..i know life is like a ferris wheel.you have to go down to be thankful for the good times,

everything from my accomadation, even courses i had booked were cancelled .so couldnt start my own company, everything it seems is being held up, friends.one by one everything is leaving for the most stupid reasons,situations that are presenting themselves are surreal at times

i was told by a meduim .3 years ago, its going to be a traumatic time whilst i go thru the change from old to new, but i am finding it diificut to beleive .the new .(that is to be great) is coming...

i am a 15th july crab with a saggie rising....

just wondered if any other crabs are going thru the same as me...

if you are .any advice?? i am in my early 50s.

I'm so thankful that i have over come 29 major stomach operations, also for the best friend that had an affair with my partner of 12 yrs, qhilst i was over coming the surgery's,as i would have continued a life of being told how stupid i am, so thank you Liz,

I am thankful for the lessons i have had to go thru, and have learned from them, i am much wiser now,

I also am thank ful (i know this sounds very sad,) but ..for my 16 yr old cat, that has been a life saver, had it not been for him, i would have said goodbye to this wonderful life,as the pain was all too much to bear on my own, i couldnt leave him, ..i'm glad i didnt .

Lastly i am thankful for the spirit guides, telling me .things will be better..