I want to thank everyone that posted on my topic,
it was my first !!
I can't tell you how reading all your posts,has helped me,THANK YOU !
My little cat of 16 yrs sadly had to be put to sleep a few weeks ago, he was like my "fur child" as i am unable to have children, so that did take me lower than i ever knew possible,
but on reading all your lovely posts, it has helped me, i really did think i was going mad, thought i must be evil for friends to drop off the face of the earth, that i had for many yrs, i thought of my friends as my family, as i only have one niece in the USA,
had told one friend i was abused from the age of 3 till 15 and that is why i have had to have 30 operations on my tummy,she then told everyone we knew, and even tho i always looked after their children weekends, so they could have a rest, i was told not to go near ANY of them or the family again,
i would NEVER hurt an ant let alone put the same pain onto a child as i had,
so..followed by other sad situations,
I'm lucky i don't feel lonely, just alone,
Operations not going as planned,having two men hold me by gun point,all but one friend has gone,for the most insane reasonsmuch more, drama,drama,drama,
I wanted to say good bye to all this pain physically and mentally,i am not one to talk about how i feel, i am usually the one that others come to, and i always pick myself up brush myself down and get on with life,
past months i can't do that....
i feel all the people that opened up and shared their lives with me on here, new faceless friends,(as we cant see what we all look like)
but you ALL have helped me, i have tried meditation, and couldn't get the hang of it, but i AM going to try again,until i get there,
bless you all,my fellow crabs
You will never know how you have helped me,to believe life will get better, i know one door opens as one closes, just can't find the door at the moment, but i am sure i will.soon.
again, God bless you all, Gabi xxx