Hey Astra Angel! Very interesting reading. I have read it only once, need to read more times to digest.
Yes, you are absolutely right - I am stressed, concerned, and emotional... My company decided to sell some of its businesses and it would affect me. The company is going to give me a retention bonus to finalize everything and I am myself a part of the deal. So far, I heard that I MUST go with the buying company... I do not like to be in a situation when I am "sold". I would like to keep status quo and stay. I feel goof about my current company, I have a lot of respect here and I think that I have a better chance to grow up in my current company. In the new company that is much bigger ( actually it is a huge global company) I will be a little fish and might be eaten by sharks. Someone told me that the door is closing for me in my current company and I that in 6-9 months after I joined the new company, they will bring their cronies and start making changes... This is not a first change in my life. I do not like such changes...
Anyhow, your reading has many things that are consistent with what I feel. I am not the most positive person and for me it is not easy to think light bulbs:-)
Thank you for your reading. I am not familiar with toki pona, Is where anything on Internet I can find to learn about it?