MistofEmerald, hey I'll like to thank you for also responding to me I really appreciate it. It's funny that you mentioned that I am all or nothing, I thought that I did sometimes dabble in the gray area.
You are right on the health problems it's something I know that I can no longer push away and avoid. So this will be the first time I actually took my health seriously. I sort of had a childlike attitude towards my health just thought I'll be ok, but now I know it can really catch up to you.
I'm also really interested in the possible spirits guides that you mentioned. How do I talk to them? Would I just ask for a sign out loud?
The clinic I think you may be referring to might be the therapy I recently got into. So far I've only had two sessions but I feel it will really benefit me in the long run.
My mother yes we have some issues that we have to work on together. I know she always means well but at times can rub me the wrong way. Hopefully we'll be able to resolve some of those issues together in counseling.
As for the little boy, there is no one at the moment that I know of around 5 years old. But I am a new mom to a little boy he is one years old now and consistently around me. Maybe that's who you may be seeing?