Being a pisces right know seems as if life has been to much to handle and ending it would be more peaceful, to top it off you are going through a divorce. He may have found someone else, but it wont last long because the grass is not greener on the other side, he will regreat he lost you. I just finished my divorce, it took 5 years. We have 2 daughters which he treated like sh**, treatened their lives, kidnapped their dogs among other things. The girls were with me through out the divorce, I took care of them we had to file every 3 months because he would not pay the mortgage or my alimony. Needless to say I just recently kicked my daughters out because they did not want to follow the rules or pay their own bills and I just bought them each new cars. So I have those thoughts of ending it many many times, but that is what they wants you to feel. I know live by myself, yes it is lonely at times but I do not have to take care of no one but me. They all wanted me to fail and beg to have them come back. I am standing on my own in my mid fourties going back to school and my ex has financial problems an alcoholic, destroyed the business. I have my bad days but I am still going strong. So love yourself, take the bad days and feelings ang know it will make you stronger. No fun intended, but what does not kill you makes you stronger. So never give up, love yourself first, do not let your soon to be ex think he has the upper hand.