Blessed Be Reverend Mother Avalon and welcome!
I rarely comment on any post, but saw yours and wanted to respond. There are some wonderfully positive spirits writing on the forums and I think you will feel right at home!
Peace and Light!
I'm Emereaux. I just saw your comment and wanted to offer you a reading.
I see that you are on the brink of something new and you're in a transitional period. It is time to move ahead with balance and strength. You are sensitive and open right now - which is a wonderful state of being. But there really are wolves in sheep's clothing in every aspect of life, and you can help yourself by developing discernment about what's presented to you. Not everyone will have your best interests at heart. I do not see a relationship at this time, but much potential exists. You have all you need to get to where you want to go. Be patient with yourself. We all have to walk a rocky road at times to get to where we need to be.
Blessings and light and
Peace of the heart,
I do not know if he will ever speak to you again, but the cards indicate that there is nothing you can do at this time to make him do anything he is not prepared to do.
I see a lot of confusion right now about hopes and dreams for the future, and that things are in flux.
Please remember that right now we are in an INTENSE Mercury Retrograde, which among other things, deals with botched or misunderstood communications. There is a lot of information about the current retrograde on this website and how each sign of the zodiac is affected. That may be the greatest help to you right now in trying to understand how to navigate this difficult time.
In any event, the wisdom of the High Priestess is available to you should you wish to delve inside to find out what she is showing you at this time.
Wishing you the best!
Peace and Light,
I am sorry to say this, but I agree with what others have told you about your energy influencing the outcome of your readings. It's something we all have to be careful of when we're reading for ourselves. Sometimes our desire for a certain outcome/interpretation can override all else. You're chasing your own tail right now and that is making you crazy.
What I see is that you have invested a tremendous amount of energy into trying to be the right person for him. You have been carrying the full burden of the relationship and all of the resulting fear and insecurity that if you don't do exactly the right thing, Mr. Hot will turn into Mr. Cold.
What you do not mention is what YOU want in a relationship. It seems that in your quest to be the perfect mate for him, you have forgotten about yourself. Do you really want a relationship like this - constantly unaware of where you stand with him - yo-yoing back and forth, unable to count on anything? I do not see whether he will visit you or not - what I do see that you are at a fork in the road and you have a choice to make.
It can be very intoxicating to be swept off one's feet - all of the intensity is very delicious and satisfying. It's what comes after the initial fireworks that determines whether a relationship will work or not.
He's shown you how he will treat you. Is that what you want to settle for?
Sounds like you're doing what works well for you! I too find my head tilting to the left and slightly above eye level. Any chance that you're an artist/writer or creative person? I've heard that when one is imagining something you're more likely to look slightly up and to the left....but when one is recalling something, you're more likely to look up slightly and to the right. Maybe that has something to do with your head tilt too.
But deep breathing does have a healing and relaxing effect on the body and mind, and I think it is an important aspect of meditation. If you are interested in learning some breathing techniques, following are two different methods that I use. Or do some research to find different methods for different situations - there are a lot of them!
Regular deep breathing - breath in through your nose, let's say for a count of 5, breathe out through your nose for a count of 5, keeping the rhythm flowing with no stops and starts after breaths - slow and steady, really filling your lungs and diaphragm deeply and then emptying them thoroughly.
If you feel anxiety or are unable to let go of something, get into yoga position, breathe in through your nose for a count of 5, and breathe out through your mouth for a count of 8. Again, slow and steady, really filling your lungs and diaphragm deeply then emptying them thoroughly.
Do this until you feel more balanced and calm.
I wish you the very best and great success with your Yoga!
Peace and Light