Thank You Hans
You've been very busy and I want to thank you for giving your time and energy.
I see the relationship between my husband and I (general family) as being oppressive as he's an alcoholic, so in light of that, I don't know that manipulation is such a bad thing, do you? Long term damage could be the result? I've thought about walking away from it, but I love him and I just, in my heart, do not want to do it. I've never thought of the envy factor though and I see what a waste of energy that can be. I'll watch myself on that one. Petty things take the joy out of life and I would like some joy. Would that be the 5 of Swords by the way? I've used my tarot cards before and the image came to me while I was re-reading your answer. Seems to show up a lot!
Should I continue as I have with the creativity or focus on one? Jack of all trades and master of none? I follow my urges and am tugged sometimes in to many directions. If one area can be pushed just a little more... I'm having more luck with photography than anything else, but I've loans in the thousands for my graphic design education. It, however, goes no where but into a brick wall.
And thank you for the last piece of advice "life is atomic the moment decides itself". My plans have always gone awry, and after awhile I question if I have failed somehow to make the right decision. Then I blame myself for just about everything.
Lastly...(trust me I'm trying to edit) ... When you do these readings, do you every sense danger coming to the loved ones of those with questions? I'm a mother, and I worry. My mother lives alone 400 miles away and I worry. I think it's genetic I'm not in a rush to have immediate answers though, so when you can.