Thank you for your reply. I value your insight tremendously. I have been asking those questions you asked me. I agree with you, when you said, "... we are attracted to many souls in our life-time and for many reasons." I have been too... and will be in the future too, I'm sure. Here's a little quote from MY post on the other thread, that clearly this is not the first "attraction":
"Occationally in similar situations to this, my brain tells me that my heart is being ridiculous (that it's all just a "fancy"), and in those cases heart often agrees and I can dismiss the thoughts with little to no struggle, but this time my heart doesn't seem to want to let go and I don't understand why?"
You asked if I remember the circumstance when this happened... well it's been over 2 months (closing to 3) and I often have a hard time to remember what I did last week, but I do remember I was at work (I own an art supply store), the radio was on (nearly always is) although I have no clue what was playing at the time, but I can't remember what I was specifically working on. All I remember is that I felt this urge to put the work aside and look this man up on the internet.
The next day I couldn't still get him out, so I pulled out my art supplies and made a drawing of him. I have used that before to get a thought out of my head on to paper. This seems to usually help me to get over "obsessions". I have often thought of them just as artistic inspirations, and I think most part they are... just that.
You asked me to define Love, Soul Mate and Longing as I see them: I will try to do my best...
LOVE - has a tremendous range of feelings, from love (caring) for your friends and family to the passionate physical/emotional love where nothing else seems to matter than to be close to this person.
SOUL MATE - Individuals who share a non-verbal connection of minds and souls. I don't believe there is just one, but instead I believe that there are "levels" of connection. Some stronger than others. I think it's the strongest ones of these that most people recognize as "the one". Does it mean there is no stronger possible connection out there? No, but a few blessed individuals may have found "the one".
LONGING - Different from "missing", I miss my Mother, for instance, whom I have not seen in 5 years (drawback of living on different continents) and wish to be with her very much, but I do not "yearn" for her... Longing for someone is to yearn for their "being", soul, spriritual essence to connect with yours. Or this is the best I can do in trying to put an emotion into words.
You also asked, "Have you fantasised to the point where you believe you LOVE him?"... I probably should have originally chose my words more carefully, because I keep repeating that I do not KNOW him, and therefore I agree that what I feel couldn't be "love" in the stricktest sense of the word. By doing all this has taught me that "yearning" or "longing" for this man is probably a more appropriate way to verbalize my feelings... like I'm being pulled... like some part of me is reaching out... towards this man and I don't understand why?
Here is another quote from MY post on the other thread:
"That is why I ended up on this site, trying to see if something I have "denied" the existence of could actually be behind it. If this brings me to open up my mind to a new "level" of thinking, then maybe I can bring peace though knowledge. I claim no physic powers whatsoever, so I turned here to find people who either do and can help and guide me - OR not, and I will go back to thinking as I used to and try to cope with this the best I can."
You also said in your post,...
"Could you have precognition? (Seeing the future) Could this person have something to do with your future? Is your work related in any way?
Is it possible that you have known him before this life? That would be my feeling. Sometimes people just trigger soul memories for us ... sometimes all those feelings we had with someone come flooding back. Sometimes, nothing is ever meant to happen with them a second time ... "
Like I mentioned, I claim to have no powers... I don't think it is the future I see. I have dismissed the idea of past lifes and incarnation before, but now I wonder... I just don't know. All I know is how I feel and when I try to logically dismiss it, I can't. I turn to the "stars" to "tell" me that I'm being riddiculous and what do I get... (this is an excerpt from a post from "The Captain", you can read the whole copy of the posting on the other thread)
Tuesday, January 26, 2010 13:34 PST
Eidothea, your best matches were born -
My husband (Jan 11) vs. Aquarius (Feb. 5th) (Happy Birthday to Him, where ever he is!)
Now, I know it does not mean that THIS man is even "the one", but then add this.... (another quote from ME on the other thread):
"What is even stranger... is that yesterday, I did a google search on "eidothea", because I was wondering how much information about me might surface, since I use that name alot on online [, by now] for decades. Turns out... I found nothing, but I did see that "eidothea" is a genus of some trees that only live in a small area of easter Australia, New South Wales and Queensland. What floored me is... that within this information is a link to this Aquarius' birthplace. So I have to wonder... is there really some otherworldly connection between us? I'm not so sure I believe in incarnation, but I cannot disprove it either. So, if I do have a pastlife, have I known him in it? It just all seems so strange."
Maybe I'm reading too much into things, but I'm just trying to figure this out so I can hopefully figure out where I am supposed to be in my life. Like you said, even if this is past life connection, that doesn't mean that anything is supposed to happen this time, and I can accept that. At the same time, I have often wondered why he is not married... He's over 40, has been dating this one woman for years... why has he not married her? He has a child from a previous relationship that also did not work out... Why? I wish I could ask him that...
Anyway... at this point I need to try to understand me first.