i m reluctant to ddate other people coz i still love him , secondly sometimes i hope his sexuality will change again n we can be together again. but of late he got his guy friend to talk to me on the phone n he told me that i was obssessed with him, he just takes my calls because he cannot refuse me directly because he doesnt want to hurt me, when i asked him he said he did not know what that guy had talked with me n if he wanted to really end everything ,he cud have stopped picking my calls himself......after this episode i cud not believe him, how cud they be living together not know what his guy friend had told me on the phone....highly unlikely...............
..i have started feeling that maybe im being even cheated upon in the friendship...so when i do call him i dont feel nice, which i do coz my heart compels me too..
im not taking my life seriously ........i keep thinking about the episodes n events where hes lied to me like above, n mistrust him now.............i think my calling him serves no purpose when hes just keeping me as a person whom he can call when necessity arises..........
also i feel if i break up , atleast he'll know that i understood he was making a fool out of me..
for concentrating on my own life, i feel i want to call him one day, tell him that i have decided i cant be his friend, mainly because i think he lies ...i dont want drama when i know im not going to be with him in the future....or i think i can email him n write all that i feel these days n tell him i want to end.....what should i do?
my astrologer told me to create a gap and wait till september, he might turn around.
should i wait till sept considering ive given in 3 years or do it right away.