Wow, thank you. I think this description totally fits me, for I really love nature and I can be deeply moved when I see a picture of trees and green hills. I can sit and stare or meditate for a long while outside listening to the birds and the wind when I have time and I feel very attracted to green lands, especially to the British Isles, and thinking of it soothes me indeed, although I think that many people do like natural places, don't they?
I also agree on what you say about these vibes. One of my sisters, for instance, is in a sort of depression and she does not seem to enjoy the little things in life like I do. And when she is in such a mood, I feel a bit angry with her, because I seem not to be able to change her mood; she seems so determined. It is true then that I would rather try to get away from such people with bad vibes. But now there are times that I really try to radiate goodness and love to people around me and actually change them and the world a bit. I am not sure if it works, but I feel even more happy when I make myself believe I can do so.
I know that I can usually trust my intuition when it comes to reading other people and their intentions, but these remain very vague ideas inside my head, and when I try to do it very consciously, trying to even read their thoughts, I don't trust myself entirely yet.
Talking about these vibes, I come to think of another part that I've been wondering about: over the last year I've been to a music/drama school (not professional, rather amateuric) to try to overcome shyness. In the end it didn't work out for me but the improvisation teacher often said that she appreciated my presence, and she put me in a small group and I would be the 'audience'. So even if I did not participate, I came nearly every wednesday night to watch them play and laugh. Do you think this teacher is also sensitive to vibes, or is it just because I can't stop laughing with the silly improvisations of her fellows that makes her feel good about it? I really liked going there, although I did not talk a lot at all. However, there's only one coming-together left (no class but just dinner at her home) and the classes only take on again in September. Although the teacher encourages me to come back, I don't feel comfortable with the idea of still being so distant and the other group members not knowing how I really am. They probably don't feel the enthusiastic vibes I set out as my teacher seems to do. So I think that I should just come back in September, break the old silent habit and immediately start to talk to them.
Sorry it's long again, and I've been thinking so much that I even forgot one of the points that I actually wanted to make. But at least, I got some new insights to overthink some of my dilemmas with, and I'm very grateful for your reading.
