@Jana-Star said in Open for Readings - RWS + Energy Oracle + Moonology Advice:
Hello I hope you are well. How are things? Are you okay?
I was wanting to request a reading for my mother and me. I want to know please if she will ever reach out to me and show me kindness. Please let me know what you pick up and be brutally honest. I have no issue with a brutally honest reading lol.
I have decided to walk away and have her reach out to me. She is so unfair on me and family notice .
Her birthday is 4th March 1961 and I am 14th October 1986.
Please let me know when you can .
Hey dear @Jana-Star - Thank you for your question and your patience
Ah, its amazing that I got this message about your strained relationship with your mother in the health reading I did last time. Like it was very strongly guided to me.
It was something I couldn't ignore at all but felt hesitant asking you.
I must thank my spirit guides/angels after all
Well coming to the current reading request about your mother and you.
As I mentioned what I picked from the past health reading was you need to reconcile with your mother, however unfair things might have been in the past but at the soul level, you crave for that oneness with your mother. and it won't change if you walk away. It will require a lot of work but there is a chance that things will get better between the two of you!
But let me do the fresh reading for you on the same topic :-
Root - The Fool reversed, The Emperor, Ten of Wands, Nine of Pentacles
What we can see from the cards is that the root cause of these issues between you and your mother is the innate personality differences of the two of you. And also the fact that when it comes to conflict resolution you both have the same way of handling, so it becomes a deadlock- not sure if I could explain it well.
In the past, she has always considered you as an immature child who took some irresponsible life choices or something that she wouldn't approve of- at least she thought so. She thinks you have been reckless and she doesn't agree with your free spirited nature. She on the other hand, likes to keep things under control. As a parent, that has become almost a toxic negative pattern in her mind that she feels agitated that she was not able to exercise her full control over your life.
Does this resonate? Eventually, she started feeling like she is the flag bearer of the house, who always needs to discipline her children and when they stray off, she had a hard time accepting the same. It is like a very weird stagnating thought for her, and eventually she just let go off, relinquishing any relations and with a thought that- its their life, let them do whatever they want, I'm not going to interfere. but she still holds grudges for this.
Also, as a personality I think she likes being independent and aloof. The Nine of Pentacles also suggests a bit of vanity, pride and show off.
Now I don't know how much this resonates, but there is a message that she wanted to have more authority over you, which she could not as you are your own headstrong person who doesn't want to be dominated. Being a mother she may have subsided her need to control eventually, thinking its best what you decide on your own but the lingering resentment is still there for her. She needs to release these negative blockages from her mind. It is sometimes difficult for parents to do that and to trust that their children also know good enough. Yes she had a hard time trusting in your lifestyle/choices or may be even love life.
Was there a particular incident between the two of you, that may have impacted the relationship dynamics?
Phew! This tug of war needs to be stopped. And I know how tough it has been for you, hugs you were looking for her to exude more motherly warmth but she just went cold. I think she had her own battles. I would like to give her the benefit of doubt too!
Current Energies - Seven of Swords reversed, The Devil in reverse, Nine of Swords, Four of Cups, The Queen of Cups reversed.
Clarified by The Moon reversed
You may be feeling like you now need to drop all pretenses and move away from all the drama. however, since I specifically asked about your mother's current feelings and energies, this Seven of Swords reversed depicts that somewhere even she wants to come clean, she wants to work on this relationship. It might be there in her subconscious mind, she may not be well attuned to it right now but there is definitely a desire to reconcile and collaborate with you. She also wants to put an end to this negative cycles between the two of you, but your aloofness now won't be helping.
With the Devil reversed, Nine of Swords, Four of Cups and The Moon I have a feeling that there is a lot of mental thoughts troubling her, almost to the point that is she having any mental health concern? Have you ever considered that? Anxiety, depression or BP? Narcissist disorder? I may be wrong but it would be beneficial to have someone talk to her regarding mental wellness and in that case she would need more support and love and with right medications she may start feeling more positive
Sorry, if thats not the case but something surely troubles her. Don't conclude that she is not affected by all this. She is definitely stressed equally.
The Queen of Cups reversed denotes her here where she comes off as being not very compassionate and nurturing, she is moody herself. I would suggest that she get back to her creative pursuits. I hope she can embrace spirituality and work on her feminine energies.
And as an advice to you that when it comes to her, why don't you listen to your inner instincts, may be your intuition is telling you something.
Near Future - Two of Swords reversed, Three of Swords, Strength, Death
It does look like you have been thinking of taking this decision to call it quits for quite sometime now. Now it is totally upto you to take your call. What I see that you will eventually walk off. But do you think that will give you the ultimate peace? Is it something you think works out for you? With the Three of Swords it looks like it will cause a lot of sadness and grief for you as well, we may be rash sometimes but find some stillness within you and ask yourself-do you really want to let go of any connection with your mother?
you know what either ways it will cause sadness for you. Because breaking off anything is tough, harsh on yourself. It won't be so easy for you also.
As an alternative I think its time to accept what had to happen, happened in the past and work on healing this relationship. It would require a lot of inner strength, taming of egos but letting go of the past looks like the best plan for you. You both can work on a fresh start. with the Death card here, I think it could mean two things - letting this relationship go or letting the 'old decaying patterns' in this relationship go!
The choice is yours.
I've asked so many times if she will come back and I got an answer as Yes but it would be very very long.. not immediately as she will also be shocked, sad and everything adds up again to the ongoing resentments. It would become even more tougher to reconcile then. and you would just lose a lot of time together.
Advice - Ace of Swords, Six of Cups, Ten of Pentacles, The Sun
This also seems like a long term outcome. The advice would be to work on clear communication between the two of you. Somethings need to be addressed here, however brutal it may be, be honest with each other as that will help clear this fog. Sometimes, to resolve conflicts we need to have heated conversations. Its time you both got together and did that. Look at the other three cards, all the two people are seen facing each other, talking face to face. And thats the thing you need to do. Once you have talked it through, things will get better, relive the past good memories. She wants that too! Remembering the good old times will help you both.
With the ten of pentacles, I have a feeling someone in the family can intervene.
Do you have a sister? Or may be your father can help bridge the gap.
The Sun card is an optimistic card and it is also about coming honest with each other. This card also tells you that things will improve, some things will come out in the open and then there will be more warmth in the relationship. do not give up.
also, for sometime it would be worth concentrating on the positive things that have been between the two of you, neglect the shortcomings for a while. More positivity will attract positive vibes in this context.
All in all, I see that things will improve and that's the reason I would urge you not to take any rash decisions and work on talking more with each other. Please communicate and address the grudges. it will solve the issues definitely. but you are free to choose what works best for you and your higher good.
Disclaimer- pls take it as per your free will of belief system-, In the past, was there an event when you did not support your mother? I feel like there is some past life contracts coming into play in this lifetime! I'm no expert here but I'm being shown something like there was an episode where you didn't support her and she was hurt, things got bad from then on. Is it this time in the past or past life, I'm not so sure.. Tarot cards suggesting this the world card, the wheel of fortune. In fact your oracle cards also , give an impression that you need to let go of past life debts. The Moonology card is the karmic card of repeating patterns over lives. The Seventh Chakra card of Archangel Uriel, also suggests that may be there is something in the Akashic records which could help understand this.
It is a great time for you to get connected with the spirit guidance. Your intuition will lead you, and guidance from your higher self will provide the answers you seek and desire. Find the stillness, quieten your mind and listen
Oracle - Don't let your past hold you back | Don't let pride get in your way
As I mentioned, this card asks you to let go of the past and make a fresh move. This is a karmic card pointing to a deadlock situation either in this life, or may have played across several lifetimes. The key to release this is to fix it now, else it keeps playing over and over again. It looks like there is a chance for you now to break this. And do not let your pride, ego get in the way.
I swear I actually pulled these two cards for you and not kept it intentionally here, trust me
so I'm not sure if I could help you, there were a lot of information flowing regarding this question of yours. I hope you could get helpful insights that can help you make the best choice for your own inner peace
and I'm sorry if this was not something that you wanted to hear lol but the cards are very strongly suggesting this. Feel free to let me know what could be interpreted differently.
And I wish you all the best.. sending you peace, love and light