I met him we get on good.
I feel guilty feeling this way but i'm 37 and he 46, now he has no job, living in sheltered accomodation.. and because of bad health he has a scooter cause cant walk far.
No i'm not norm the shallow type, i took him around my town a bit i just felt i had to think of places where think of a scooter.. i just felt guily because i was thinking this long term is not what i want, but a bit of fun in which we have had, i dont want to be tied like that i have enough in my work. Yes i know it can happen to us..at anytime, also he got no home or money,
I feel bad in the sence i feel sorry for him, but he's already said about meeting on my weekend off, i feel he may depend on me too much.
The worst part for me was when i met him at the station, because the weather was the most worse some how i ended up having coffee in the diner where i did with my thought soulmate, then later on when considering where to eat angd get a scooter through, where do i go in the resturant/ pub, where me and my soulmate met, i felt tearful and just wanted to be home to myself,.
I waited with this guy for a hour till his train came cause i felt i ought. we had a bit of fun that all i fear he'll depend on me i dont want or need that.
Since then i've been so tired, this week till today, i'm not worring anymore, it's been a need to feel and have some sexual fun, i needed as i been on own too long, so now, i've cancelled subscpition on online dating..
I'm letting the Steves of this world go, and Rob too .
It my time to get out into the real world, but right now i need a lot of time for me, to let my inner self work my sharman, and forget the contraints of soley finding my shining armour lol..