Is not that he doestn answer my question he jst wont whenit comes to feelings n love.. I've hurt him 2 and one not beingmy fault... so i get why he is hesitant in expressignhis feelings.. in words.. his actions are much more clearer.... He shows love and care.... n 2 nights ago was pressent in what happened that night.

opening up... my piotn was is that he used to rely onme when things happened call me tell me coemstay at mine... n id be the only one he told.... so my puiont is now its starting to happen again where he feels he can tell me abotu big thingsin his life.. ie he nonna had a stroke.. n he wasn't dealing well ... or otehr things.. that are on his mind.. n given all the hurt between us it kind ofshocked me that he can still trust all his otehr feeling and empotions..

Um no he isnt seeing anyone else... that has come up in our convo's cos i thought if he can ask me i canask him .. but he didnt go into detial liekhe semi encouraged me to ....

His reason for not being able to have a relo atm is beciase of uni ... and before you say if you love some oen you nmake it work... When he was at school his last year... he stopped being social, he went to the libruarry every day and studied his but off that was all he every ay so he woudl get great results so he coudl do his law degree... after all the effort he got rather depressing results..... now that he has finally been able to do the degree .... after much more hard work .. and getting hight distinctions.... It worries thim to now fail or under achieve... as when we were official he was barely passin.. as he thought he was being a bad bf to me.. he didnt realise i could help him achieve his goals... n that he wasnt neglecting me... which is why when we were exclusive../ we foudn it was workignbetter.. we saw each other more.. n he was able to maintain his H.D. .... n i would mark his essays and he was actually improving again.... to where he jst had to get 3 marks out of 40 in his exam to pas the whole course...

-- he wants to be able to provide for his wife and kids, he wants to be set up n give them everythign they want and need and the things he never got to have.,,

this is why its funny that the other week was the first tiem in the year and a bit i have known him that he has set a tiem for when he wil start lookign for a relo.. when uni is over. july.

It accidently posted twice.....

he doenst deal with direct... he runs..n hides. he expects me to answer allhis questiosn but never answeres mine....

-- no its not jst online.. we see each other laterly once a week .. amoungst freinds n we end up sitting together n being in our own workd and seclude our selves... i wanted to take him out jst him n me to some where we wanted to go abotu a year ago n never got the chance....

-- after hearign soemthignelse.... it hink im down with second hand info ... i dnt belive wat i heard to night to b true as they dnt realise dave istn goint o open up to ppl ... he is a very private [personn it is a stretch for him to open up to me....

-- atm im jst taking it one day at a time.. focussin gon me he will talk when he is ready... all i can do is be there.. n show i care n love him ...

-- teh situation is still slightly more complicated then expressed.

Yes my cancer is not tight ass... he likes to save money but spoils me rotton.. and a price has never been to hight for me... btu knowing that he lieks to save for rainy days i try not to spend so much or find the best quality for money .. being a libra is something iv had to learn but its a valuable lesson to have :).

Yes the trsut is big issue.. but i can understand this too...

-- so he toldhis sister he still loves me... and has feelings and its hard when he sees me i found this out last night after a a down cycle with him.... n then i got hugs last night... i know wew have something special and so im gretful for time.. and the surportive friends i have.

plus im really appreciative of the info you have given me Sandran712 xxx

I don't know much my friend never explained completely jst told me we would fight but we would always work it out if we talked, and that he was the one and we had the strongest kidn of love. she also looked at thses charts n in abotu a year i think they meet up as that is when he will propose.. she did all this about a year ago..

thanx for that idea:0, is there any way i can find out more information or anymore you coudl share ?or find out . t

I have almost been married and willign to move over seas with my partner n i thought i loved him and i feel abotu so stronger n so much differnt.. i have been through alot of shit, inthe past with mathew the fiance.. who later got married 6 months later..

• iv had a bf cheat on me n lie to me about it n concieve a child...

• iv been molested my my grandfather

• been raped twice by two different ppl....

• my lesbian best friend stole my bf of two years then i found out he had S e X with 15 other women in between our relo....

Im sick of this crap.. n dave has never once down half the crap that lot all did...

I used to b able to read him we used to see each other nearly every secodn day, now becuse of things we talk nearly every night onmsn which isnt the same. but at the same time a start as before he wouldnt eventalk to me on here let alone if he saw me in person... we are slowly workign up to it.. iv had to learn to be patient i normally have a bad temper... i still know when to not push him over msn btu its just the mixed signlas that get me n i get really emotional then its like it never happeneds...

i really appreciate all th help you have given me.. so if i just am here and don't apply pressure... and roll witht he punches and go with the good times.. and dnt dwell on him when he is being moody. i love him and impretty sure he loves me by the way he reacts to things and given then events in the past i would say that him trusting me to tellme his grandmother was in hospital was a good sign.... and the fact he can now talk to me for hours..

-- is there any clues you could give me in how i would possibly be able to get him to come out more with his feelings or at least admitt to them. Also maybe how to get him out of certain moods.. or I jst leace him alone till he is over it.

he isnt completely controlling i dont stand for people telling me what to do u.. you tel em to do soemthign il do he opposite to piss you off....

-- i get wher ehe cares about my health and education so i dnt mindhim keeping tabs on those..

-- but he contradicted himself... n he tends to do it all the time.... one minutes wil be like nice.. n complimenting me co sof somethign i ddi with out realing it .. tell me to stop teasing.. n then when he made a comment i said many a tru word are sai din jest... n then that almsot caused an argument.. as i apaprebntly worded it wrong after i explained the meaning.. n he was liek shit if u dnt wnt the grab ppl attentionor u dnt wann do this u shoudlnt b dointhat.. i said calm down im not having a go .. n then it ws sorted ... then he goes jst rememrb imteh ex n il alway sbe the ex blah balh .. n its liek well if ur the ex why u so curious into who i date and ur theone that iniates alot of things...

-- our friends apparently had a discussion about us as they have wanted me to move on for a while and when they al sat antalked they came to the conclusion based onwhat they have seen n been todl that he obviously stil cares n has felings/ love and is in denial.

-- i then apparently confirmed their suspicions with wat happened friday n telling her what we've been talking about...

as her bf piotned out if he didnt care he wouldnt come when she needed him fast.... n he woudlnt give a toss wat she got up to nor would he care about wat happened with jason.....

i know they get moody and im used to it.. iv learnt to deal with it... i just wish i coudl work out where i stand.. he has hurt me once and i him... when we get together the chemistry nlvoe is pretty obvious and strong and the passion is ther.. i dnt know is its a crab thing where he comes out n retreats n is scared or ... and he never says things directly ... so i dnt know if he is jst tryign to reasure himself when he asks certian questiosn or makes certain statements for me to react to .. or is jst being truthful... I got told look at their actions not words as actions tend to be more truthful .. n well it showignhe stil loves/ feelings..

I know i can't control them i just wish there was a slight indication as to what is goin on.... yer we tease each other but in the past it tends to work out and the relations is generally good,.,.we weork well .. i don;t pressure im there, know wat he needs and things just work...

-- liek last night he goes from being all flirty to hot to, now you shouldnt be showign ppl you boobs and reprmanding me... nhe knows straight he is the only oen that gets to ... then he was liek woman ur so distracting... n then he always makes rules he cant keep... nit seems to be happening again...

• i just wish i knew wat was goin on in that head .. just to know whether he is testign me n wants me to wait tilluni is finally over.. or to serioulsy jst go move on... and cut him out completely... which would b hard as we share the same friends and cant reallyy escape each other..