Thank you. I grew up with an iron fist and little to no affection and I love being touched.... (now) I got over my issue early in life because I realized at 17 years old that I liked who I was and without "all of that", I wouldn't be that person.

It sounds more like there is anger lingering that you haven't let go of. Forgive yourself, them or whomever, then love yourself. When you love yourself, you can love back the right way.

Now... don't take me to any China Town and hold me to this! LOL