Hi Captain, you have read my vibes before and I have found you readings really useful, you seem to hit the nail on the head. I would really appreciate a reading here.
I first contacted you some time ago when my partner had died and I was just coming to the end of a realtionship with a friend of ours, and your readings were so true. I have since been in a five month relationship with a very complex, confusing man, who constantly gave out mixed message and blew hot and cold. He was either very encouraging and supportive and hinting at a future for us, or distant and casual, saying we weren't right for each other. I have now ended this relationship altogether, which is really difficult as there is still so much in him that I love and want. But sometimes we need to let go of what we want so as not to get what we don't want.
I have done a lot of soul searching about how I have presented myself and lived my life, , and can now see real patterns in what I have accepted over the years, and the things in me which have prevented me having a really fulfilling relationship.
There are still things about my last relationship which disturb me and would be helpful to get to the bottom of. He could be quite evasive if not secretive, and the relationshp was definitely on his terms. He said that this was just an emotional protection following a difficult childhood and a very painful divorce some years ago, but I have always felt that there was something bigger in hs past which he did hint about but never really opened up about. The 'bigger' more universal part of me now sees him as a very damaged, hurt, emotionally scared person, but the insecure defensive side of me thins, 'was he just a complete conman'? Although I had a great deal of pain from this relationship, I realise my part in this, and that I allowed this to happen. I don't feel any resentment etc towards him, and really do hope that he does eventually find the fulfilling relationship he really wants with someone who he can feel really open up to. I do suspect that he is already at the beginning of another relationship.
I feel that I now need to get grounded in not just living alone, but really being alone without a love relationship in my life. From this recent relationship I have realised more of what I want and need in a relationship and just wonder if there is anyone in the future who could love and cope with this crazy Gemini?