wow Dreamer...it's strange how you understand what I mean so well....and you are right too....although the truth is that I can't help how I feel...with this I decided that I will wait around on him...he says that he knows how difficult it it for me that he is never around, but there is nothing that he can do about his life-style....I know that he feels the same for me...and since I can't belong to any other man...I'm gonna carry on being his...this way, like you say Dreamer ''living and loving for the moment''. Thank you so much for your help Take care