Very good story for my case ...clear teaching. I guess that everybody is in his on river, how to deal with the currents and waves without sink is the real challenge. In my case I do not feel exactly like any of the 2 straws, however the one fighting describe me better. I don't feel like fighting the will of existence, but trying to understand how to deal with it. I'm hungry for wisdom, knowledge I think I have enough to go by.
It is very interesting your comment about middle age energy flow , makes me think I will feel better. Since long I understood that the real search is inward and still most of my energy is going in other directions.
Definably the wisdom of your words will help me, I hope will be able to let you know how things are going from time to time and share some books etc. also here you can see what I do I appreciate your time and very much your thoughts.