My heart breaks for you when I read your posts... Can I suggest that you start thinking about YOU... not the relationship, or what he wants, or whether or not he's telling the truth... but YOU... What makes Michelle happy? It's always hard when you break up with someone you love... and of course you're both going to feel miserable... but that doesn't necessarily mean you should be back together! You have a lot of things to consider wrt the relationship, but first things first... What do you want and need in your life? Start thinking about all the things you are grateful for (ie family/friends)and focus on the things (other than himself) that will give you strength, satisfaction, fulfillment in your life. Sounds like you started down this road with enrolling in college (good for you) ... there's nothing better or more satisfying than "doing it for yourself"!... You will feel less miserable as the days go on - I promise!!