I'm not sure if it is finished, but here it goes:
I thought I lost you and went searching....but it was me all along.
Lost despite your struggles to hold onto me, to mold me.
I went numb to the touch of your hand on mine, dumb to the sounds of your voice calling to me, comforting me, at times cajoling me.
A spirit so heavy from birth, you went to great lengths to show your favor with me....yet one by one people strove to take that away.
You can't be beautiful they said, you're so poor.
You can't be gifted they said, you're not educated.
You can't be worth much they said, you've been defiled.
So for a long time, i put on a smile, buckled down, conformed to societies will and closed my heart to you.
Became ugly, became stupid, became worthless and so much worse....until it was all they saw.
The weight on my neck and shoulders becoming too unbearable.
Then one day i looked up and saw through the mirror of eyes, the image that was beaten into me until i began to beat myself into it.
Then i knew who i truly was or must become.
Then i came searching for you....and realized had you not been there all along, i would not be here now.