WAHOOOOOO!!! Tears of Joy and some of fist pumps for Fe!!!

I've been so worried, checking back each opportunity I got but there was no cause for concern.

I'm sure the only thing missing from his reaction was the mastercard man in the background saying " Chicken and beef enchiladas $3.00/Lb, lots of wine $60, standing up for yourself a gagillion dollars, and the look on __________(insert ex's name here) face, PRICELESS!"

LMAO!

ps

I think it's crazy you said throwing the party will harn no one. When did you become no one? YOU MATTER!

Dear Peg,

First I have to sound like SalientLiving and ask if the party is something you want to do. There is no question from all you've shared that you are a kind hearted care giver. If you are throwing him the party to remind him of this, please don't. Someone once said, if they don't love you by now...they never will. If all he's done is use, take and mistreat, what will that one day change?

If it is something you are doing because it is your nature, then must you compromise and alienate yourself in the process? He's got one foot out the door, don't let him continue to dictate who you should be around honey. Invite your family, have a blast! It's your own sweat going into this, don't create the scenario where it's just the three of you and frequent periods of discomfort and fake laughter...please? Let him have his miserable way with his family later.

Then again, SalientLiving has a point. Maybe you should just not be there. It is a fine line between an eye for an eye and knowing that the fat lady has sung. No matter what, deep breaths, genuine smiles, and serenity I wish for you this weekend.

mwah

Yay you SalientLiving! I hope you know Fe and I are living vicariously through you in the man department! Be sure to score more for us ok? LOL!

Fe, yes it is scary to say the least. There is one thing I am sure of and that is we ALL experience fear. The trend with you, Salient and I right now it seems, is we are not allowing it to paralyze us but instead are using that emotion to yield positive results. By doing this we replace the negative with earned positives that will last because we worked for and worked through it.

My weekend will be spent writing, staying warm and catching a flick or three.....it"s been a while since I've been to the movies.

So Shall It Be.

Ahhhh!

Feangelikah, that was my response to your poem. I didn't realize I was holding my breath! That was beautiful! FYI, I'm tearing up too. From now on everytime I want to complain about not having time to do me, I will look to your poem for inspiration. Such grace! Thank you for sharing.

Lady Salient, I'd love a bull with no bull and anatomy the size of a bull! LMAO!

LOL Fe! Maybe we should clone her Bull instead?

Thanks Ladies for the thoughts on the "poem"...I've never put anything like that out there before but I believe there is a reason for it. My spirit tells me there is someone who really needs to hear that....

I was referring to the scene where Jack and Balbosa were both trying to Captain the ship and they kept asking each other " WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!!"

I think the last one features a wedding, but I haven't seen it yet.

AARRGGGH! CWB! How are you doing?! (remember that scene? loved it!)

I wrote some sort of poem, wasn't sure it would be appropriate here...please let me know what you think of it ok?

Yo ho, Yo ho!

I need three bottles of rum, YO HO!!!!

I'm not sure if it is finished, but here it goes:

I thought I lost you and went searching....but it was me all along.

Lost despite your struggles to hold onto me, to mold me.

I went numb to the touch of your hand on mine, dumb to the sounds of your voice calling to me, comforting me, at times cajoling me.

A spirit so heavy from birth, you went to great lengths to show your favor with me....yet one by one people strove to take that away.

You can't be beautiful they said, you're so poor.

You can't be gifted they said, you're not educated.

You can't be worth much they said, you've been defiled.

So for a long time, i put on a smile, buckled down, conformed to societies will and closed my heart to you.

Became ugly, became stupid, became worthless and so much worse....until it was all they saw.

The weight on my neck and shoulders becoming too unbearable.

Then one day i looked up and saw through the mirror of eyes, the image that was beaten into me until i began to beat myself into it.

Then i knew who i truly was or must become.

Then i came searching for you....and realized had you not been there all along, i would not be here now.

---Binghi.

Ahh, bulls are great! The love of my life is a bull....I still miss him but let him go a long time ago on the premise that love was a butterfly and if you love and let go, it will come back to you. In a time of easy chicks and failing condoms, my how young and naive I was!!! LOL! Then again, the fat lady is yet to sing....

Thanks for checking up on me Salient Living. I will start with the easy question. Yes, the link was removed. I guess posting one without autorization is a no-no. I was trying to invite people to Jennifer McLean's healing with the Master's site. She had a week of predictions and it was open to non-members for free. I spent an hour sometimes more listening to great psychics, empaths and spiritual warriors talk about 2011 and teach about how to embrace the energy shift and coming changes. It was AWESOME!

You're right, I don't talk much. Which is weird because I might be a great speaker. I like to think that when I feel I am in my element, then will i find my voice. In the interim, I listen, learn and sometimes write. I don't have any songs to post on this thread, my tastes are very eclectic me thinks! HE HE!

Anyway, i just finished writing something and figured I would post it here. This thread seems to be having a positive impact on many by the way.