im an aquarian i was in marriage for nine years just got out of that 8 months ago. i really didnt start dating again till about 6 months ago. i meet this woman named stephanie she just came out of a marriage her self 9 months ago. some friends got us together one night when we all went out. when i first met her i didnt know what to believe about her she blonde,blue eyes, and the most of all very beautiful and sexy. it was about two months into our realationship she ask me to move in with her so we could be together evry day and night so i did. i knew what i did was right cause my feelings for her were way stonger than my ex. or anybody i knew. i lost my job 2 months ago having a hard time finding another one. so i started drinking more than usual and just doing nothing to help her finacially. so 6 days ago she told me she wanted me to move out. i was blown away when i heard that i mean she even stopped calling me texting the whole nine yards. but didnt i started blowing up her cell phone trying to get her to talk to me. when that didnt work i started texting her every 30 minutes she finally said to leave her alone she needs her space. then i did the unthinkable i keep texting her and being very hateful rude and disrespectful. imtold her some things i cant beleive i said cuz i am a very loving person and hate hurting people. and guess what i was drinking when i did all of this. know my biggest worry now is i think i have lost the love of my life for ever. so please let me now what to do? i love her with all my heart and soul. she is what makes live life. cant lose her and will do anything to get her back.