First of all, I really wanna thank you for replying. I really appreciate it. And for your question, NO. I haven't made any moves at all. The last time we talked the day he left. WE WERE SO OKAY I already knew that he might be goin through some things cause of the babymama and the child of course.. But I didn't expect it to be like this.
We didn't have any communication the whole time he was away and this was for 3 MONTHS. When he came back, he went online on Fbook and he messaged me first. I only talk to him whenever he talks to me. I never called him nor texted him. I emailed him twice when he was away but that's about it.
When he initiated a conversation the first time, he acted as if nothing happened. Like we were cool. I never mentioned anything about his trip or about our relationship. It was very casual.. even though I was hurting inside. Then I got fed up because he would always message me on chat and tries to have a normal conversation when he knows for a fact that he has a lot of explaining to do. So I told him that what he's doing is NOT OKAY cause I'M NOT OKAY. Then I blocked him. I never talked to him again. All I want is for him to give me an explanation. If it's over. just say so
One time, I wrote this quote "I'm lost, lost in dreams and reality" on my status. And he made a comment saying "I'll guide you.." and it just messes up my head BIGTIME cause I have no idea what that's suppposed to mean. I CRIED that night.
One more thing that I couldn't understand, he already ignored me the whole time he was away, why couldn't he just keep doin that since he already did it for 3 good months! WHY STILL TALK TO ME, right? It hurts.
I know I need to move on. But I can't help but still wonder sometimes.. I don't understand why.