BrianTristan:

Thank you. I've gotten your message, and I've responded accordingly.

I don't think I want to write him a letter, because I feel as though I'd be too in your face with that. All I know is that I want him in my life, and I've been terrified to text him or anything since he didn't respond to my last text. Now I fear he hates me or doesn't want to hear from me. It's such a wretched feeling.

BrianTristan:

You're amazing, I hope you know that. The advice you give is incredibly insightful and given in such a sweet and gentle manner. Thank you.

I've been trying not to think of him, but it hasn't been working. I can't talk to anyone about him, except for you. My friends get tired of me, even though they talk about their guys much more than I do, so I haven't mentioned him to anyone anymore.

These past few days have been killing me. I just wanna talk to him, to tell him that he can trust me, to tell him that I don't care what problems he has, that I'll be there for him to help him sort them out. He's such a sweet person when he isn't being weird.

I don't know what to do, Brian. I want him in my life. Please help me, please give me advice on what to do so I don't drive myself insane. I've been keeping everything in, and I can't talk to anyone but you, and it's been so difficult for me lately.

BrianTristan:

Thank you so much, I really appreciate what you've done for me I ask you to read my thread not because of him being a Cancer, but because that thread details our entire "relationship" since the beginning, and I thought you could shed light on it like you have so beautifully with everything else.

BrianTristan:

I know =/. I need to figure out myself for once. All I do is try to please everyone, and I never pay attention to me.

Just out of curiosity, were you ever able to read my post, "Cancer man is the most confusing person ive met"? Because most of our "relationship" from the beginning to now is detailed in there, and I just thought it would give you better insight into the situation, but you obviously have great insight.

BrianTristan:

Thank you for being so caring. I truly appreciate it. I've realized that nothing goes according to plan, and I can't always be trying to make things go my way. I still care about him, I'm not gonna sit here and bash him and rant about what a bad person he is, because he's not. Yes, it's true he didn't treat me as well as he should have, but I don't blame him, he's emotionally messed up, and that's screwing with his head. I believe you when you say he likes me, and that he's scared. I've decided to give him his space while I take my own space in the same time.

It's just disappointing when things like this happen, you know?

BrianTristan:

Thank you once again. I know I need to love myself, it's something I've been working on for a long time now.

My one question for you is this: did/does he like me at all? Was it all a lie? Did he just get over me in the past week? I want to know that I wasn't so gullible and stupid...I really felt something real with him. And I truly believed he liked me.

BrianTristan:

I don't really want to meet anyone. When this semester began, I told myself I wouldn't get involved with anyone, and I was actively not trying to pursue anything with any guy. Of course I saw guys who I thought were attractive, but I wanted to be completely focused on my studies, and, because of several mishaps from last semester, I swore not to go looking for any guys or let any guys distract me. And then, not even a month into the semester, he happened. I didn't go looking for him, he came to me, and although I was weary, I let it happen. Now I see it was a mistake, and it possessed every one of my thoughts over the course of this entire semester. So meeting a new guy is something I definitely don't want to do. I'm just sick of being duked over by every single guy I either like or get involved with.

BrianTristan:

It's okay. I just need a lottttt of time to get over this one.

And I just found out today that he's taking his "friend" to his formal this Saturday.

Apparently they're "just friends" as I heard from my friend who asked him, but honestly, what is the reason for him to ask someone else?

I want to shoot myself.

BrianTristan:

That was beautifully written, thank you. I understand everything you're saying is true and the best advice to follow. I just feel very hurt, and very stupid. I can't believe it was all a lie. I've been screwed over by every guy I've ever liked, and I thought he was different. But I was wrong, obviously. I now have this complex against guys, and I highly doubt I'll ever get close to one again anytime soon. It's not worth the heartache.

BrianTristan:

I know where you're coming from, and I appreciate the great responses you've been giving me. They've definitely helped me put things into some sort of perspective. But since he hasn't responded, part of me is thinking he hates me, he's blowing me off, he doesn't care at all, he thinks I'm crazy and just generally nobody important. And then a small part of me thinks maybe he's taking his time to answer to think about what he wants to say cause he might care even just a little bit. I don't know. Now I think he really doesn't like me and was just screwing with my head all along. But he told me he's not that type of guy, and anyone I ask who is his friend says he's the sweetest guy and doesn't play girls that way. But his close guy friends also say he's "really weird with girls."

???????? I'm so confused.