Thank you for your time and insight,I do understand what your saying, and again thank you.
count me in, iam sitting on the bottom of a big hole, i can;t get out of. my soul is broken and iam too tired to get out .bless all whom gives unconditionally, like me I try to always see the good in people, and it has bitten me beyond ouch, God Bless
The Captain,hi I have spoken to you before. I was wondering what kind of mess my future holds for me. no matter what I do, I end up the bad guy. It doesn't seem to matter that I am giving to a fault, or willing to take crap,even when I should't. Iam a very comparionate person and most people take full advantage on all levels. well, Iam so tired and drained. I just want to stay in my house and leave the world out. I realize that may not be healthy for me but Iam at the point where i've been broken,right to the core and I can't get ouy of it.I even tried to find new friends,and you know what came up NO RESULTS should that tell me give up on the friend thing. I don't know any more, some people say Iam just feeling sorry for my self, how do I explain that this is not true? how do I find new and good friends? I don't do the bar thing,Iam not very out going, I guess its true what people say about me....Iam frumpy and old fashioned, frumpy not even close very down to earth maybe, I just seem to attract the wrong people, the ones that know they can take advantage of me. I have to say alot of them "seem" ok until Iam all used up.please some one help me. thank you for your time.
Dear poetic555, how do I know which little voice to listen to? that is probably the silliest question i've ever heard. lol but seriously, i truely don't know which way to go. i suppose i should wait til he gets back and see if he has really done some soul searching,i wrote a letter to him telling him what i needed in my life,(my thoughts are better wrote down and he can go back any time to read it)then I asked him what he thought he said as far as us goes he has seen some revolations and as far as the rest of his life changing well didn't have much to say. he always has open ended answers....... frustrated, and un sure thats me. thank you for including me in your time.
dnnmre, thank you for your honesty, I have been with this guy for over five years. I thought I could help him get his life together,but Iam not so sure he wants to try, if he does want to try then it would only be mostly on his terms.he won't be back till first of may,but we do talk on the phone a couple of times a week,we rarely talk about us,and alot of the time neither one of us have much to say.I need some help here.anyone can join in,how do I rectify this if thats even possible.I am soft hearted to a fault,that really gets me alot of negative feed back in my life.and could some one explain to me why, scorpios feel the need to lie so much. also I would love to be able to talk it all out, but he beats around the bush so much,and leaves his answers,and his comments open ended. and No he never aksed me to marry him because he Knows been burned too many times,I just won't do it again.all input is very welcome. every one in my life wants me to just toss him to the curb when he gets back, but I feel like everyone deserves a chance, and I give alot of those.I need to learn how to stand up and have a back bone (which I've never been any good at, but if I do that now I will only be the b--ch, and it will be put all on me to blame. any ways,thank you all for being so kind to help me.
my guy and I have been seperated for a couple of months(since the first week in jan.) he went to work in a different state.we have been together for 5 and a half years,we have had many issues with each other, Iam older then he,by ten years. not that it really matters, ok,Iam 51 years young and this is the very first time I have lived alone,had my own place,and found that I don't need anyone to controll me,or be a daddy to me,or tell me what I can or can't do. I really have found my independence during this time. now I don't know if I want to continue this relationship, or call it a draw. I do have feelings for him, I just don't know which way to go with this, I need some insight,and real help to figure this out before he gets back. there is alot of drama that comes with him,too many to get into right now.I need some one to help me figure this out,Iam an aquarius, he is a scorpio.
Captian, thank you so much for the reading, you are right on with what you say ,right down to the point of I don't know where to start. I can't believe that at my age,I should know what I want and how to acheive it. does that sound crazy.....I wish there was a class on what to do to make my life happy for me......I have always, since I was 8 taken care of every one else,really not a bad thing, just now how do I change the only thing I know?any way thank again hope to hear from you more .
I have been in a relationship with a scorpio for over five years, and he is the hardest person i know to,well for lack of another word,to get into his mind. For some reason he lies about everything ,I think its the fact that he is a loner has been all his life,he will even say so.Even though he says he loves me,I just can't get him to open up to me.right now he is working in another state for a few months, this would be the fiirst time we have been apart since I've been with him.I told him that I know hes not in llove with me,but I know he loves me,he said to that,the spark just is'nt there,it's barely a night light. how would you take this?We only talk a couple of times a week,on the phone.For someone who is a loner, he sure is making friends and having a good time. Don't get me wrong,Iam glad he has people around him he feels comfortable with,but when we are together he doesn't want to go any where or do anything when hes with me.I don't know what will happen when he gets back,I just know I don't want it to go back the way it was before he left.Iam just not sure what to do with him.Iam 51 years old, and I can't wait forever for him to decide what he wants to do when he grows up.any one have some ideas other than the last resort of just get rid of him.Just so you know he is ten years younger than I.
TheCaptain, Thank you for your response,I totally agree with you ,but some people only have so much they can help with and give.Me, I've been a care giver since I was 7 years old,i raised three brothers and i had a group home day care in my home for 10 years,I've worked with the elderly and the handicaped,again Iam not feeling sorry for myself,I was blessed with four wonderfull children,and 7 grand children.i feel so lucky,i just want to have a life as an empty nester,I'ev never lived alone,with my own place,which now at 51,I do,but some health problems, have stopped me from being a care giver.i just wish i new what to do next,it has been a long hard road. my marriage failled after the kids moved out now, I would like to tweek, my spiritual,abilities,with the stars and the spirits,how can I do that? Iam a giver, i don't know how to just give to myself,strange right,any way thanks again,
To all the people reading this,Is there really help for the hopeless dreammers. or is it just some thing to keep us from being totally bored? I would love to hear what other minds and souls are thinking,me Iam on my way to giving up. no, I don't feel sorry for myself in any way .Just can't find my way. and would love to hear real people just give there take on there life and what type of person you are and how you get through the day to day drudgers and not give up. I don't need to know how to just do it,far as Iam concerned ,there is no such thing as just do it.It all depends on each indavidual and there life.come on lets make this a good seed to help any one with anything with in our powers. Iam challengeing all to come out with it . this needs to be down to earth , and informative, soooo who is going to take the next step. there is way to many people in this country that need people to get by in this life. If any one feels Iam nuts or full of it, try me.iam a big dreammer with NO results.
serious 7, Hi, I have been on this website for about a year give or take and Iam not getting very far. Everyone on here has been great , but i can't seem to get where I need to be. Iam in a relationship that is going no where Iam a mother of four grown children, and about to turn 51.when I first got on here i didn't have a real home,but now I have my own appartment,that is a good thing,but Iam on disability for what thats worth and iam ,feeling like I have no real purpose. Yes I have my kids and grandkids,but shouldn't there be more out there for me? I have always believed in the stars and the planets,but again does nothing for me. Man Iam so tired of what I feel is whinning,I just am out of sorts for a good life for me.I have been married 3 times and diviorced all three . I seem to always go for the guys that need mothering and Iam haveing a hard time breaking the cycle. I have been a care giver since I was 8. so thats all I know,I don't know how to do for me,and I really believe my life has been,no help to my inner being. I pray, and I look for new things to do and see,I've always been a little different from most,I guess that would be called being an indavidual, but I don't no where I belong any more.I can truely say the only taste of happy was when I had my kids, and thats where it stops, so how to be or feel happy is (not noing how it feels) just not sure.i have a guy as I said,but he is working in another state for the next three months,I have never lived alone ,and don't care for it much so far,i like that I decide what to do from day to day,but I keep looking over my shoulder waitting for some one to need something or need to go some where ........I don't know .rereading this makes me sound hopeless,but I know I can't keep feeling this way or Iam just going to become a recluse. any way thank you for being patient with me. the only friends I have are faceless people on the internet,and this website. may the stars always light your way