Thank you for your time and insight,I do understand what your saying, and again thank you.
count me in, iam sitting on the bottom of a big hole, i can;t get out of. my soul is broken and iam too tired to get out .bless all whom gives unconditionally, like me I try to always see the good in people, and it has bitten me beyond ouch, God Bless
The Captain,hi I have spoken to you before. I was wondering what kind of mess my future holds for me. no matter what I do, I end up the bad guy. It doesn't seem to matter that I am giving to a fault, or willing to take crap,even when I should't. Iam a very comparionate person and most people take full advantage on all levels. well, Iam so tired and drained. I just want to stay in my house and leave the world out. I realize that may not be healthy for me but Iam at the point where i've been broken,right to the core and I can't get ouy of it.I even tried to find new friends,and you know what came up NO RESULTS should that tell me give up on the friend thing. I don't know any more, some people say Iam just feeling sorry for my self, how do I explain that this is not true? how do I find new and good friends? I don't do the bar thing,Iam not very out going, I guess its true what people say about me....Iam frumpy and old fashioned, frumpy not even close very down to earth maybe, I just seem to attract the wrong people, the ones that know they can take advantage of me. I have to say alot of them "seem" ok until Iam all used up.please some one help me. thank you for your time.
Dear poetic555, how do I know which little voice to listen to? that is probably the silliest question i've ever heard. lol but seriously, i truely don't know which way to go. i suppose i should wait til he gets back and see if he has really done some soul searching,i wrote a letter to him telling him what i needed in my life,(my thoughts are better wrote down and he can go back any time to read it)then I asked him what he thought he said as far as us goes he has seen some revolations and as far as the rest of his life changing well didn't have much to say. he always has open ended answers....... frustrated, and un sure thats me. thank you for including me in your time.
dnnmre, thank you for your honesty, I have been with this guy for over five years. I thought I could help him get his life together,but Iam not so sure he wants to try, if he does want to try then it would only be mostly on his terms.he won't be back till first of may,but we do talk on the phone a couple of times a week,we rarely talk about us,and alot of the time neither one of us have much to say.I need some help here.anyone can join in,how do I rectify this if thats even possible.I am soft hearted to a fault,that really gets me alot of negative feed back in my life.and could some one explain to me why, scorpios feel the need to lie so much. also I would love to be able to talk it all out, but he beats around the bush so much,and leaves his answers,and his comments open ended. and No he never aksed me to marry him because he Knows been burned too many times,I just won't do it again.all input is very welcome. every one in my life wants me to just toss him to the curb when he gets back, but I feel like everyone deserves a chance, and I give alot of those.I need to learn how to stand up and have a back bone (which I've never been any good at, but if I do that now I will only be the b--ch, and it will be put all on me to blame. any ways,thank you all for being so kind to help me.
my guy and I have been seperated for a couple of months(since the first week in jan.) he went to work in a different state.we have been together for 5 and a half years,we have had many issues with each other, Iam older then he,by ten years. not that it really matters, ok,Iam 51 years young and this is the very first time I have lived alone,had my own place,and found that I don't need anyone to controll me,or be a daddy to me,or tell me what I can or can't do. I really have found my independence during this time. now I don't know if I want to continue this relationship, or call it a draw. I do have feelings for him, I just don't know which way to go with this, I need some insight,and real help to figure this out before he gets back. there is alot of drama that comes with him,too many to get into right now.I need some one to help me figure this out,Iam an aquarius, he is a scorpio.