i just lost a whole load of reading for you so i just have to give you a summary as it will take too long to repeat it.
your reading is a positive one so don`t look on the gloomy side of life. you have finally decided to do something about your life in your head but not in your actions. this is a forward move on your part as you are not thinking victim anymore and are looking outside the horrible bubble you have been living in for 20 years. all is not lost even though you have issues about letting go as the unknown fears you as much as what you are living. you do feel that all this is such a burden that you feel you cannot take the pressure anymore. you must make a move because the card crossing you states that you cannot be idle anymore and you have to take action. there will be days that you think that you cannot go on but you know what you want. you have had your heart broken but you have come from that a little even though it is the root of this reading. you are the queen of swords and you must take action and not sit on the fence because the fence is not very nice either. you will swing in and out of indecision in the next few weeks as you will want to keep things ok and be frightened to change things. these could also be associated with money issues. trying to keep the peace and little afraid to see what can be achieved.
you yourself are in a way wanting to keep things quiet and not wanting to upset anything even though you must look at new approaches. you may want to change things but will hang onto things the way they are if you are not careful. frightened of the unknown is a terrible thing but think where you are now. it is a hard decision to move on and the reason maybe due to money and only that. you deserve a little recognition and this what you want. if you do this you will be in the same position in the future as you are now. so look at what you want and what you have not been having. you deserve a better life than this. Families are very forgiving and love you utmost so do not let them make you sit on the fence. you have to do this for you and your self worth.
there is a man in your cards he is fairish and can be brash and loving in the same statement. he can be a bully (negative trait) but be loving as well. he is a leader in his own life and wants everybody to know this. can sometimes not take other peoples feelings into account if he is against you but he can fight for you to the death if he is on your side. two sides to everybody. taken the negative in this case.
your dreams are of nice things you enjoy to be surrounded by nice things, furnishings, house, garden and like nice things. this card also says you can make it alone very succesfully if you look at what your talents are. you can be again who you once were or someone who can go out and achieve anything she wants on her own. you can do it all yourself and have a very good way of looking at a structured approach to your future.
final card says you are a very nurturing person and have always helped people particuarly nurturing young people to see their potential. you like making things nice and enjoy the beauty of things. you have not lost this you just lost your way.
additional cards tell me there is a young person around a bit of a dreamer, very artistic and quiet and loves all things arty and even nature in a way. could be looking for a life in all these sort of areas. you may also find a love soon or a good friend that could help you. there are so many choices with this card you will have to choose which fits you. the young person or a new loving relationship. this card also says you will also start to look at life in a more loving way than you have done of late.
final additional card you move away from the relationship finally and you will finally start to trust your intuition and begin to see your talents and allow yourself to dream again.
something you have been wanting for such a long time.
hope this reading was of some good to you.
i hope you will make the move away from your pain and if you need total support you can call victim support who can be at the end of a phone for you or you could meet for a chat.
victim support number is 0845 30 30 900 i used to work for them and they will listen and help you. let me know what you think of your reading it was very positive from where i was sitting.
Light and love. anne venus.