Thank you Astra for reading and responding so quickly.
I always felt a great intimacy between him and I and you hit the nail on the head perfectly when you talked about the sexuality also ... Thats some of why I feel like his love for me is fading.
Our sex life was on fire, couldnt keep his hands off me and the notes , sexts he would send WOW!!! but the last few months he spends a couple hours a day on the phone to the queen of wands and has nothing to say to me. I go to a cold bed alone as he sits up in front of the tv until the morning
Nights are colder, he rarely wants to please me , he gets what he wants and is sleeping in minutes. The days are spent trying to make small talk and the hope of him responding to a hug or touch , even hold my hand.
It just gets lonelier.
I will do my best to hang in there and love him so dearly until he comes back around to me.
As for friends with the queen of wands , I have known her my whole life , aside from the horrible things she has said and done to me , I assure you I do my best to be friends with her and have always been more than polite to her . Not once has a negative word come out about her to him despite what she continues to say about me to him .
The queen of swords , well there is no way to be friends with her as she is hiding this long distance relationship from her husband while she cries to my boyfriend about how he told her she was the only one he would ever love and pumps his family and friends for the details of our relationship.
He tells her she is the most beautiful girl he has ever set eyes on but then when she asks about me he says nothing... he has not said I am in his life or that I am not .
So I can not try to embrace this queen as I am not supose to know he is talking to her . He told me years ago she is crazy and wanted nothing to do with her...
yet he accidently leaves her email up on the computer so I no longer use his computer so I dont have to see that stuff.
Yes I am thinking of moving on as this is a lonely life far from what I have known with this man...the love of my life.
I coyuld never stop loving him but also know that I feel the need to leave so maybe he can have the life he really wants with one of these two other queens. I would never want him unhappy...
Thank You for the help I have a lot to think about