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10gemini06 I'm on a break but will answer your post. Weird though as I feel like I have already addressed your question--if not directly perhaps I wrote to another the same answer perfect for you as well. Spirit shows me LETTING GO--it's a big sign! You are butting heads big time with this. I'm asked to share this personal moment with you. My son passed two years ago on the fourth of July. Somewhere in the daze of following days I received a box of his belongings--including his shaver. I picked up that shaver trembling--knowing his scent was there--thinking how many times I had cut his hair myself--how each mother knows that divine sent of each of her children--that scent now GONE? I couldn't resist as painful as it was I just had to raise that shaiver close to my nose all the while a strong voice in my head knew better--said don't do it don't do it but I couldn't stop and just as I put it to my nose I heard my son yell "MOTHER" in a most repremanding tone--throw it in the trash now! Right now! And I did. And he was right. I saved several of the gifts I gave him that he kept but there is a line you must draw when holding on to the pain. Surrounding yourself with loving attachments is one thing but that scent was asking for way way too much pain and had I not tossed it in the trash right then I would have never been able to let go of it and it is the reality--his earthly scent--body IS GONE. There is no hanging on to that without gathering stagnate pain. You must let the relationship blossom into something new as it is different. If you keep mourning the way IT WAS you will be frozen and unable to move forward into what it is. You cannot grasp the reality of his presence because you cannot define it yet as something different. You must become friends with change. There is meaning in loss if you can find the change it brings to you in the most enlightening way. This is the contract we make with our loved ones before birth. To give his life with you meaning you MUST find the gift. How will this change you for the better? It's how we honor our loved ones crossed over. Usually it is our task to cultivate in ourselves the very thing they brought into our lives. They showed us how it was done then left and said here now you integrate my gift into yourself. Simply said--the very thing you miss most in your loved one is the very thing you must now grow within yourself. I sense too much isolation in you--too much in your head. You need more connections with others in a giving way. You've heard that angels come through the mouths of strangers and that speaks loudly to you. Spirit says volunteering would be great for you--specially in a hospital setting. Because your problem comes from a holding onto energy you must find giving outlets. Volunteer work will take you to the next level you are reaching for. Right now you feel very stuck. Embrace CHANGE and it will lead you out of this rut your stuck in. Blessings.

Dear 10gemini06, I am so please you are trying to find the " Enchanted Pond". So go back to the " Search" and put in " Enchanted Pond", then press " Go". Scroll at the end of the thread, "Enchanted Pond" and search for the letters, "Reply" and in the block " Enter Comments" start to write to us. We are all waiting by the Pond with open hearts, minds, and arms. Please come by to sit on the rocks and share your story with us. Hugs, Rooster5

Brian, I know what you say about this house being a tomb, that's how I also feel. I just can't seem to enjoy it or feel any warmth in it now. I know I have to get out into the world and being summer is coming on, that will happen more. I have had little desire to do much of anything but take care of this house. Please don't feel bad about not know more of what I gone thru, I am a very hard person to read, have been told that by many. I don't know if it's because I'm a Gemini or not. I appreciate your even taking the time to write me at all. I have talked to Beth on here and I have tried to connect with my Angels. I'm not sure how to even to it. I have read and re read your advice, it makes sense and by coming onto this site I know has been a good step. I have gotten some good advice. A lot of these things are inside my head somewhere but I needed someone to just bring them out. God Bless Minnie

see the other question you have about this for the answer

I believe you and that is something I am going to work on, professional help also. He has serious health issues also. I wish my husband would send me a message, I always have the feeling that he is trying to, but I can't get it. I do miss him. My living situation, in the country, in the winter, and being new to the area when he died, makes it almost impossible to make new friends or to meet anyone. I guess if I am to meet anyone to be a companion, he will have to fall in my door. I thank-you so much for taking your time, to answer me. You were right, we were an adorable duo, everyone said so. But things didn't turn out the way he said they would when he died. God Bless you

10gemini06, I need you to tell me what it is: above all, if you have recently freed yourself from an entanglement or been through something unpleasant, you should pay special attention not to regress. I will await your answer: if there is an important decision to make, then you should let it ripen, until you have found your own. clear position towards it. Maybe it would help you to meditate, take a long walk or simply look at a lake as long asit takes to be at one with yourself. Not more than two weeks. The climate is ready. You are just a vehicle.

Thank you 10gemini06, the life of each one of us shows that we do not know anything about life at all. Otherwise, how come there is so much despair, so much misery, so much anxiety? The essential religion is not a bondage, but the ultimate freedom.

another answer: you are going away from your clingings of your heart on a new way into the unknown. One who has become aware, he sees everywhere only one thing: that everything is born and dies, everything begins and ends, that everything is a flux. Nothing is worth clinging to, nothing is worth holding, nothing is worth possessing, because it is bound to disappear sooner or later. Hence he remains nonpossessive.

This thing that is hanging around you, is a bad thing, What will happen, what will it be? You could be hurt. That’s the whole message of ecology: we are together. You breathe out, the tree breathes in; the tree breathes out, you breathe in. The tree purifies you through oxygen, you nourish the tree through carbon dioxide.

Thank you 10gemini06, and my thoughts and prayers will be with you as well! : )