Hi Bloom,

I've read some of what you've written and it sounds like you've had a pretty busy summer too. Even thou the economy is still bad, it seems that this little resort town had a much better summer. More people around spending money, business people didn't get to rich but it was better then last year. Just no one buying houses. But it will sell when it's supposed to. Now if this keeps up thru winter, snow mobile season, things will be improving. Love walking on these cool mornings, I did get my bike going this summer, and I have to tell you, I do admire you for being able to go as many miles as you do, I can hardly get it up the drive way. (lol) Think I had better stick to walking.

HAGD, going to get ready to go.

Hugs and blessings to all

forestwalker (gen)

Good morning all,

I have some time this morning to just set and reflect. It seems my summer has been spent in the middle of a whirlwind. Can't seem to catch up, but from some of the post I've been able to read, I think we've all been very busy.

Icey, Thank you so much for the numerology advice, I have always been attracted to it. Have done some research on it, and when summer is over, and things slow down, I am going to get into it a bit more. I'll have to start slow thou, because it is a bit hard to understand some of it, for me it is anyway. I sometimes think Icey that the wolf you sent me to walk with, is my protector and I know on my walks she is my only friend. One day a coyote popped out of the woods and started to walk right at me, just walking towards me, not running, and I stopped and just put my hand in my pocket and got my mace out, but then it just looked at me and went off into the woods, (probably because it sensed that I am a human, it's arch enemy) but I like to think that it seen my wolf and decided to turn and go in another direction). As far as selling my house, I do know I have a life, it's been a pretty busy one lately, I think the two reason I want to sell it so badly is one is financial, my husband did a truely beautiful job when he built it, but it is just not me now, we never had time to make it into a home. It is just a house. So many people seem to envy me, they think to have something like this is so nice, but it to me is not comfortable, not homey. I am not complaining, it just seems to be holding me back. For the last few years thou I have learned to live around it, not in it.My life style is so different now then it was then, I think I have evolved into my own person now, before I was someone else's person.Life will never be without problems, I don't think it's supposed to be, up until the day we leave here, we are learning and teaching from what we learn, without even knowing it. I would love to learn to meditate, I have such a hard time clearing my mind. being a gemini I think has a lot to do with that, when one is ready the other isn't, if you know what I mean.

Icey, if it hadn't been for you and Lady Laie, I don't know how I would have made it thru, or even where I would be at now at this point in my life. And it's not over yet. The other day a momma deer and her two young walked across the road in front of me, and I automatically thought of you and wished you could see them. Such a peaceful, beautiful sight. They seen me and I had to wave my hands at them to make them move on, as they were on a curve, was afraid someone would come around it and hit one of them.

LC, where are you? I have been busy too, but every once in awhile, I come in and write a few words, haven't seen you in a long, long time. I hope and pray that your absence is due to the fact that your busy raising your boys and happy in what your doing now.Take care and keep in touch.

Lady Laie, Your enchanted pond picked me up and put me back on my feet when I had fallen down into the deepest pit of despair that could have ever existed. Your words of encouragement and advice I can honestly say let the light back into a very dark world that I lived in. I will be eternally grateful for the pond, it is where I re-connected with my husband and where I learned to let him go. He will always be in my heart, but I feel him now in a different way, sometimes I even see him with me, but in a more peaceful light. Sometimes I even get mad at him now, and tell him how mad I am, and then he just walks off shaking his head and smiling. He seems to know the true me is here and he leaves me with confidence that I can and will handle my life on my own. I can only say thank-you for your Pond, even thou we all make it happen, you started it and it has helped more people then even you can imagine.

Bloom, sorry to hear of your little friend having to leave you. I agree with you thou, that little friend is still with you, still loves you, still sets by you and still hears you when you talk.

It seemed strange to me that you mentioned the flower smell, when I walk sometimes I get the same thing, There is no flowers growing where I walk now, a few black-eyed susans, the daisy's are all gone now, but I get the strongest smell of Jasmine, there isn't any around here. Other times it's the smell of other flowers, and sometimes in my house I smell cologne. Your life seems to be on a whirlwind too now. Don't know about you, but I seem to really love being busy. I love this cooler weather, our humidity has gone down finally, I'm sure we'll have some more hot ones before it's over, but I do look forward to my winter coming.

My journey friend, miss you. Still holding on to your hand, for both of us.

Sunshine, your strength still amazes me. I wished I could have just a third of it.

Love you all, have to go and get ready for my walk now.

Hugs and love

forestwalker

Hello to all,

Ice and Lady Laie, thanks for the B'day wishes. Sorry I haven't been here for awhile. Have had many personal things to attend to, never solved any of them, but none the less, did a lot of thinking. It's very hot and humid here now. Will be glad when the weather breaks into a normal summer day..

House has not sold, and I'm still conversing with my internet man. Other then that nothing is new and nothing has changed. That is bad, but good in some ways. At least nothing bad has happened but then nothing exciting has either. I think once I get to move on with my life I will finally be content, and that can't be until the house sells. But I guess everything in it's own time. It seems like it's been forever now.

Icy, we're still walking, but not every day not as the humidity is 100% even in the mornings, but when I do get out I do get to see the animals. A lot of deer now, and a coyote crossed my path, a lot of squirrels, chipmunks, love to watch them all. Even seen Cookie, the little fox one day. The forest is thick and green now and it is the best part of my life. I am so thank-ful to God that I still get to enjoy it.

I have not been keeping up on the post so can't make any comments on anything. I just wanted to pop in and wish everyone a happy summer and say hello.

I am well, and I thank God for that everyday.

Love, Hugs, and Blessings to all

forestwalker (gem)

Good morning to all,

Just popped in to say hello, not much new here, snow is all gone, but getting a lot of rain and wind and it's been still very cold. Tried to catch up a little on the post, but to many to read for now. I'm walking as much as I can, but the rain has stopped me from getting out there every day. So far, I've seen the deer back, bunnies, and of course the squirrels. They all seem fat and happy. I quit leaving "cookie" my little fox friend any treats, I'm afraid it's to close to the road and she might get hit by a car now. There's not a lot of traffic but just enough to put her in danger.

What I've been able to catch up on, it seems everyone is doing good, Icey, seems your doing a bit better, When I walk I say my prayers and your in them every day, as usual. It is strange now, that when I set in the office here now and look out over the yard, I see my big tree , swaying in the breeze, and it reminds me of you. It is beautiful, just as you are. the trees are all starting to get leaves now, and look so beautiful, as you are, and every once in awhile I see my wolf setting under the tree waiting for me to come out and we can go for our walk. She always seems to know what days I am going and what days I'm not. Keep going, get well dear friend.

My journey,

I read one of your post. As usual, we are holding hands and I feel your "Limbo" I've been it for so long it's the norm now...But it does seem that your doing much better. Be happy girl, it's contagious, I'll catch it from you.

Bloom,

How's the kitchen coming, Are you able to get out on the bike now and ride. Hope so, It's been a strange May up this way. Seems our summers start a month late now, and last a month longer in the fall. I'm still talking, again, with my internet guy. His marriage is falling apart, but it's like I tell him, if he would talk to her, instead of me, maybe they can fix it. Not that I wouldn't have him in a New York minute, but he has to give his all to what the problem is there. Another journey in my life may be about to begin, not sure I'm up to anymore journeys. My card games are almost over for the summer, one more to go and then the banquet, and I think I will be glad that's it's over. with summer coming on, I kind of hate to leave home anymore. Take care, will be checking in again.

LC

Where are you? Hope things are going a little better for you. I hope your absence means that you may be wooing another lady friend. Just wooing thou, nothing to serious yet. If not, then I hope it's just that your busy and nothing serious has happened to set you back any. Let us know that you are all right and things are good.

Sunshine,

As usual, your strength shows in every word. Fear can't beat you girl. I don't think anything can, I'll keep praying for you and the little ones too. I sure don't know if I've ever been as strong as you are. Keep climbing, you can and will do it. I truly believe God is with you, all the way.

To anyone I've missed, Happy days and lots of love and sunshine. I've got to go get ready to go for my walk before the rain comes.

hugs and blessings

forest walker

Hello to all,

Last week we had a real snow storm, and it stayed cold for awhile, now this week, it is beautiful, the way spring is supposed to be. A little chilly, but ice is finally all gone from the lake, I took a walk yesterday afternoon, and it was so warm and nice, that I had to shed my coat and so I didn't have to carry it all the way, I stuck it in my mailbox. A big beautiful deer went across the road, right in front of me. Since they had that big Coyote kill, it seems the deer have come out of hiding. It seem almost everything has, the bunnies and fox. I do not like anything being killed, I prefer to let nature take care of her own.

To the questions about my house being for sale yet, yep, I never took it off of the market. We had a really easy winter here, so that made for not many snow mobilers and people coming up for winter to look at anything. Did have one couple looking at it, came back three times, then nothing. As anxious as I am to sell, I guess this is a test of my patience. Which is seems I am running out of. Had another couple that looked at it too, but they never came back...Was for their son and he has 4 boys and the house just wasn't big enough for what he needed. So that's that and I wait.

My journey, miss you my friend. I got up to make a move with you and you are gone again. I will wait for you, still have your hand in mine. Praying for God to give you peace and sunshine, to give you what you need to make it thru each day until you can stand on your own again.

Cactuss, Hope your kitchen turns out to be beautiful. When I walked yesterday, I did get invited into the house I liked down the road, that I would consider buying if I sell mine, it was really a cute home...Could see me living there, Maybe, but the kitchen is just to small. Would have to redo it and not sure if I want to take on that again...Have been thru a few remodelings and loved the outcome, but hated the mess. I also wanted more property for my animals and wanted to get on the other end of town..A new beginning, so to speak...It seems that it is something I have to do, Start over. But can't until this house sells, am still in limbo.

Lady Laie, I know it will all get to me when it's time, but it seems that I have been waiting for so long now my patience is wearing thin. I keep telling myself, everything in it's own time.I can do it, I can do it, and I will do it. When it comes, whatever it is, I will be ready. I have to make the move and get everything in order again and wait for the next adventure. I hope your well and all is right in your world.

P-Mo, still playing cards and still getting out, the card games should be over pretty soon, only a winter thing. I don't mind thou. Yes, the sun is once again on my face and blessing our world and making it warm. Soon the flowers will be starting to bloom here and the grass will grow. And this year, I have made up my mind to find new paths thru the woods to walk on and explore.I have seen so much run into the woods that I want to see where they go, and I have that freedom to do it. I still have my mace, in case, (as my son puts it). I'm afraid he doesn't share my need for adventure..He loves the animals as I do and nature, but doesn't seem to have the need to disappear into it. Will be writing about what I find out..

Icy, It sound like your still taking a pounding, just when things seem to be at their worst, and you think it can't get any worse, it does. As usual when I walk, I take you with me, I talk to you and try to give you incouragement to go on. I think at this point, that's just about all any of us can do for you. Sometimes as I look out the window across the lawn, I see the dead spots, I always hope that after winter is over and it has had a long rest, that it will "rebirth" itself and will be whole again and green all over, but it's not. The dead spots are still there, I think it is to remind me that yesterday was here. Although it is gone, it was there and this is what it left. And I will have to put stuff on it and try to get rid of these sport. I may be able to do it and I may not, But I will keep trying, and every year it's the same. And that is life to me, we keep trying, sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't, but I am to stubborn to just give up, it is not going to beat me.And that is you my friend, I have heard you and I have listened, that is you Icey. you will beat this. Your tired and very weary, I can tell that, you've had enough, but your a fighter. Give it all you've got girl. You mentioned the tree, out in my back yard there is a tree that's about 35 to 40 ft. tall, it sways in the breeze, it's not a climbable tree, but I put myself in the top of it anyway, swaying in the breeze. I can see the world, everything in the forest and I have no fear up there. It is my thinking spot when I close my eyes and feel the sun on my face, no worries and no cares. The animals play just below the tree and once in awhile a squirrel runs up to greet me. And when I come down I am whole again, my spirit is renewed and I have so much will power and strength again. To me, it's like the enchanted pond, and I can see clear across the lake. Pick your spot Icey, I know you do, I know you renew yourself and start over each day. It's a life long thing for people like us, but it's O.K., because the ones that aren't like us, will never know what they missed. Take care and I will keep praying. Right beside you all the way...

Sunshine, It's hard enough to have to worry about one's self, but to have little children to worry about in this day and age, is so hard. To have to do it alone takes a strong person, and your strength is over whelming. God will help you, but I know you also know that, he already has.

Take care and stay strong, your day is coming.

LC, yesterday is our teacher for today, I know it's gone, but it did leave us with some lessons learned. The more yesterdays we go thru, the better our tomorrows will be.

To anyone I've missed, this is so long now, I'll probably get kicked off. I hope it post. Take care.

Blessings and hugs to all

forest walker

Just stopped in to wish everyone 'HAPPY EASTER"

Hugs and Blessing to us all on this wonderful day

forest walker

LC

It's like living in a bubble, you can see it all around but can't touch it or feel it or get to it. But then, we can't be hurt by it either, so for now, we're right where we are supposed to be.

Smile, the universe is really a great place to be, look around and see, learn, then when the bubble breaks, we emerge, much better then when we went in.

hugs and blessings

forest walker/gem

Icey,

I think I've just been looking so hard I haven't been able to see. I've forgotten the one day at a time rule. Time to back up and adjust my GPS, so to speak, now I slow down, quit looking and cross that bridge when it comes to sight. I can't by-pass it. Doesn't work that way. I can only hope and pray that it is a good bridge.

Little fox ran across the yard this morning, first time I've seen it this close to my house but I have a feeling it's been around here for awhile. When I tell anyone that I see all these things they are amazed, as they see nothing. But they don't open their eyes and look. It's all there around us, we just have to set quietly and look. I have been in to big a hurry now I will slow down and just enjoy.

I've been Catholic all my life Icey, but I, like you fell away from it. I'm not big on organized religion, but needed that as a child to hang onto. I feel God, he is inside of me, and he talks to me and I talk to him. I believe God is in everything we say and do, and we answer to him, not to a religion. I've gone in several different church's and felt peace in my heart. This Great Spirit protects me from the evil one's trying to get in.

Well enough of that, I have 6 dogs on my patio, 3 of mine and 3 of the neighbors, waiting for morning treats.

Have a Good Day Everyone,

hugs and blessings

forest walker

My journey,

Yes, we can do it, we've done it before. Right behind you friend. The rain is washing away all the old and bringing in the new. I know it's a pain, but in the long run, a good pain.

Now let's get moving.

love you my journey. look up

hugs and blessings

forest walker

Good Sunday Morning everyone,

Winter is finally over here, getting our spring storms, thunder is driving my dogs crazy, but I will welcome the change with open arms now. Will be back walking more regular now, I hope.

My Journey,

Read your post, sounds good to me, I need a re-birth about now. Lets go girl, I'm suffocating down here.

Cactuss,

Seems your life is still on a pretty even kiel, I can't complain anymore, I guess if we don't like

whats going on in our life, we are the only one that can change it. Given the opportunity, I will do just that too.This year I just might try a little bike ride, think I can go farther faster then walking. If I get to it, I'll let you know how it turns out. I really do love these summer storms, It's melting the ice on the lake too, soon the docks will go in and the sun will be here.

Icey,

I was always told that we are never given more then we can handle, but, I like you, say, enough is enough. I picture you one day thou breaking out of your ca-coon like a beautiful butterfly and your world beautiful again. With so much beauty around us it seems strange to be able to see it

and not be in it. We will again soon, be strong and patient. I would share your burdens with you if I could Icey. but it doesn't work that way. As strong as you already are, I believe you are to be made stronger and you will. Once again we will be on the road walking again, the deer, the bear and the ducks, geese, all the birds are back...We will walk and talk, and solve it all.

Lady Laie,

You are so strong, when I read what you write, it's hard to imagine that you ever get upset about anything. You take each day, one day at a time and do not seem to worry about tomorrow. I hope to someday get to that place where you are now. I know tomorrow may never get here, and yesterday is gone, but the today's seem to be without meaning, but you seem to make every day count. I admire that in you.

Sunshine,

Times are so hard now and getting harder. Just know that you are not alone in your struggle to survive. Since my husband has gone, I too live in the financial shadows, making ends meet is getting harder and harder. I feel worse for you thou, you have small children to worry about, at least I'm past that part. A lot of people are having hard times right now. Stay strong and keep the faith.

LC

I don't know what happened to knock us all down again, but we just have to get up and keep climbing, whatever it was, we let it happen, so now it's time to fight back.. You can do it, you have two really good reasons, just focus and go right thru it. That's what I'm going to try to do too. We've all been here before and I'm sure we'll all be here again. But each time will get easier and we will be stronger. I'm beginning to believe it's a life long thing, we can let ourselves go way down or we can keep up the fight. Up to us.

Going to go now and see if I can make sense of this day, must be something I can do to get into trouble today or cause trouble somewhere.

Hugs and blessings to all

forest walker/gem