Bimoon My Dear :)
Your dreams are the same thoughts that keep you from counseling. You fear revealing something. And don't fixate on the difficult teacher--all good--remember. You imagine the worst! What I meant is most your teachers will be nurturing but one will challange you--bring out things you'd rather keep hidden so in that way it will feel troubling but it's good for you. What I meant by it bringing up a past difficult relationship was meant in a HEALING way. Buzz Buzz little bee! And the poetry thing is not your lacking at all--there is a big difference between contemporary poetry and the old dead poets stuff they force on you in high school that comes with strict rules. I'm a published poet with awards and can honestly say if they tested me on form and terminology this moment I would flunck most likely! It's a memory game.