Hans, Im in need of some advice
No dout in my mind that your advice have greatly helped me. I deff needed your help to understand many things going around me that I couldent see on my own BC my spirit was hurt.
you are not a fool!
This man dosent want me in his life. I meen, he may want me to keep him posted on my progress in nursing school but he won't tell me anything about his new life. I just know he lives further away from me and he dosent have the job he wanted.
Thanks as always Buddy Hans
your physiology has its own program, which is not under
your mind's control. It goes on functioning according
to its own program.
You may have this idea in your head, but it will never reach to your blood cells,
to your bones, to your stomach. There is no
communication. There is no line of communication
between you and your physiology. It functions on its
own, it is autonomous.
Physiology is important because it is the foundation upon which we build our knowledge of what "life" is, how to treat disease, and how to cope with stresses imposed upon our bodies by new environments.
What am i not getting? what is it that I'm not understanding?
Am i not connected with reality? Am I not able to connect with logic of what I'm feeling, with what is relay going on?
What am i missing Hans?
Hans, Once again thank-you for your help. What do you mean 4yrs and conclusion???? It hasnt been 4yrs we've been apart. And use my intelligence?? With the whole picture? Intelligence- when its been off again on again, Now he tells me its over and he wants a Divorce and is chasing"J" like a dog in heat. Even if Iv heard just how beautiful and young she is.... Im thankful she has moved out of state where she came from and feel she will not move back. That is why I asked if they were more than friends and if you saw us getting back together for good. I didnt want to tell you much, cause I wanted to hear what you picked up on. Its good to know we will get back together, but what is this 08 of July? Next year? cathi56
oh I think I get it.....
I know what is going on, but my heart is not understanding it.
Is that true?
What am i not getting? The influence of drinking too much.
what is it that I'm not understanding? the influence of hormones, of sexuality.
Am i not connected with reality? No.
Am I not able to connect with logic of what I'm feeling, with what is relay going on? Yes.
What am i missing Hans? Hearing your inner voice.
buddy, if you cannot cope with many social situations you find yourself in, that does not mean that you need the help of a psychiatrist.
What do you mean 4yrs and conclusion???? You have to reveal your innermost.
And use my intelligence?? No.
With the whole picture? No.
what is this 08 of July? As the masses move on, you see a better path and return alone.
Next year? Yes.
cathi56, Mulla Nasruddin was
coming home. The sun had set. There was still some
light, but it was getting darker every moment. He was
passing by the side of the graveyard when he saw far
away a few people coming on horses. He could make out
that they had swords. He immediately concluded that
there was danger: "It seems my last moment has come."
So he jumped over the wall of the graveyard and there
was a fresh grave dug. To avoid those dangers that were
coming, he lay down in the grave, closed his eyes,
stopped his breathing.
Those people had seen this fellow. And they saw also
that he jumped over the wall. And they thought, "It
seems to be a thief or something."
It was a marriage party. And in many places in the
East -- particularly Mohammedan countries -- when
people go to a marriage party, they go on their horses
with their swords,
because in the
beginning the marriage party was really a party of
enemies, who were going to force some family at the
point of a sword to give their daughter to their son.
It was not a friendly affair. Marriage was in the
beginning an invention. It was a question of
conquering, forcing a certain family, whether they were
willing or not ... It was a power struggle. It must
have been thousands of years ago, but since then the
marriage party still carries swords.
So that was a marriage party. But Mulla thought, "So
many swords, there is danger."
And those people thought, "This man seems to be some
thief, or what? Suddenly, as he saw us, he jumped over
the wall." So they all came, jumped over the wall and
looked all around -- "Where has that man disappeared?"
Mulla was looking at them silently. Because one
cannot continue to stop one's breathing, once in a
while he was breathing and then watching, to see what
Finally they came all around the grave and they saw
this is not the way a man is buried. He is uncovered,
fully dressed, has his shoes on, even his umbrella with
him. They have never seen a dead body carrying an
umbrella, shoes, and then lying in this -- the cold
night is coming ... And who are the people who have
left the body uncovered?
And Mohammedans don't make graves like Christians,
their graves are just pure mud. They just pour the mud
on top of it, that's enough. They are poor people. They
cannot manage to have marble -- at the most a small
stone on which they put the name of the person, that's
But what kind of thing is this? And when they looked
close by, they saw that he was breathing also once in a
while. And when they were all surrounding him silently,
Mulla opened one eye. They could not believe what kind
of fellow he is, and they were very angry.
They asked him, "Why are you here?"
Mulla said, "I can ask the same question to you. Why
are you here? And perhaps you don't know the answer. So
I will answer from both sides: I am here because of
you! And you are here because of me!"
Is that true? No.
Rabindranath Tagore has written: "Whenever I see a
new child born, I look at the sky and I thank him,
because the new child is a proof that God still
believes in man. Otherwise he would have stopped
creating. We have betrayed him, but he still hopes. His
hope for us seems to be absolute. We cannot change his
hope; whatsoever we do, our doing remains irrelevant."
Existence still hopes that woman will arrive, that woman
will be able to surpass her dreams, her sleep, that woman
will be able to become conscious. Existence still hopes
-- that's why it goes on creating you.
he thinks he can use me. That's why he plays nice guy.
Sad for him. in his rate, he won't be holding on to his success for long. He found out about him steelin mess for street profit. sexual herrasment case you confirmed. cheats cheats cheats. have you herd of those case when patients is under anesthesia they wakes up with a MD on top of her?Thats what his capable of. He did it to me. He gave me meds for my nausia through IV after a hang over. it almost became routine/normal with him. I kind of came out and he was on top of me. But I couldent completly wake up from it. I felt too tired. I rememberd about it when I woke up , I asked him about it. He said "you knew about it". I talked to a officer friend of mine. He told me what I can do about it also about the stolen meds. But I'm affraid. I think with time, I can warn his new employee about his sticky fingers.
Thank you Buddy Hans. I'm going to invole my self with my chrch more, I'm sure that will help in jumping on the right path to self love and happyness.
Love and hugs=)
omyyy. my gramure is so off. for one, I ment to say; I found out he stoled meds for street profit wille he was an anesthesia resident. always had meds IV's to recover a hang over.
Buddy Hans, is it safe to report him months from now about his sticky fingers? or should I let it all go and focus on my self?
I'm sure you can see what he has and done with it before. I also would find little viles of kenelog in his restroom, ewww I don't want to think about why he used that.
Lol Buddy Hans your going to hate me.
I dident see the very last MSG you sent me.
i thinks safe to assume I'm the one with hopes. But eeewww no no. mind body soul. present future wants him OUT. ewww emagin. let's not.
omgosh I need to get my thoughts together to make better sence of everything plus what I say to you.
Buddy Hans if you need a break from me. tell me, cuts okay. But I will come back to you. qhen I'm closer to the rainbow.
is it safe to report him months from now about his sticky fingers? no.
or should I let it all go and focus on my self? yes.
Buddy, when this civilization is destroyed, people may think
it was a natural calamity. It is not. We have created
okay Buddy I will.
I think it's time to stop thinking about him.
Now I just feel the brusing of the past.
That's I get. all the many bad choices I Made in the past led me to this horrible situation. It's karma and the universe forse me to learn the right way the hard way. i just hope there is a happy ending. I moved to this boring city I hate and I tell my self things will be diffrent if all goes well with school. As far as dating again. I'm very scared. At the same time I totaly feel this whole that I bene trying to fill. But I shake of fear. Time heals all. I will be fine. For now I need to keep my head down in my books.
man can become a pearl, a precious pearl, but that is
only a possibility. One can miss it too, and
ninety-nine point nine percent of people miss it. They
remain simply dewdrops; they never become pearls
because they never become crystallized enough. They
never become centered enough, they never become alert,
aware enough, to pass through the transformation.
My chances are low. But I have a chance.
Any further advice?
Sorry Hans, I dont understand what your trying to tell me?????? You never said if they were more than friends, if we would get a Divorce? cathi56
Any further advice? Do not hate your own intentions.
Lieh Tzu reports a story, that in his town once it
happened: the richest man of the town was crossing the
river and the river was in flood. And there arose a
great storm and just in midstream the boat overturned.
Somehow the boatman escaped, but he couldn't save the
rich man. The rich man was drowned. A great search was
One fisherman found the body -- the dead body -- but
he asked a fantastic price for it and would not give it
up for less. The family was not willing to give so much
just for a dead body so they went to a logician, a
lawyer, a legal adviser, to ask what to do. Could
something legally be done?
The lawyer said, "You don't be worried. First give me
my fee and then I will show you the way." So the lawyer
took his fee and then said, "Hold on. He cannot sell
the dead body to anybody else; he will have to yield,
because nobody will purchase that body -- so you just
Two, three days passed. The family followed the
advice. The fisherman became worried because now the
body was stinking, and he started feeling that it was
better now to yield and accept whatsoever they gave. It
had become a problem, nobody else would purchase the
body -- he also felt it. So how could he bargain? But
before deciding anything, he also went to the legal
adviser -- the same man.
He said, "First give me the fee and I will give you
the advice." He took his fee and said, "Hold on! The
family cannot purchase the body from anywhere else --
they will have to yield."
Logic is a whore, a prostitute. It can be for, it can
be against. It belongs to nobody.
what your trying to tell me?????? be the emperor of your life.
if they were more than friends: no.
if we would get a Divorce? no.
cathi56, there are two types of persons: one who cannot feel
any affinity with negativity and the other who cannot
feel any affinity with the positive. You are the
negative type. You cannot feel affinity with the
positive, you feel affinity with the negative. You use
all negative terms.
I just would like to say hello Buddy
I read one of your MSG stories to one of my instructers at school. She was very intriged by your philosophy. It's the one about Logic ( the rich mans body) I shared your MSG with her BC before I shared with her, she said something that I felt like she interpreted your MSG to me. It's was wierd I felt like everything connected together, like she was "ment" to say that to me. We were talking about her husband that has cancer.
Anyhow, I hope your day is going well. I hope you get this MSG.
thank you for sharing.
But remember Buddy, she is just dreaming and so are you.