I'm stuck, does anyone have some help or advice?
Hmm, I am picking up a fear in you of being cheated or ripped off, but you mustn't let this hold you back. Also there is some money issues here - you want to earn more to have freedom but then having money means more responsibility like a car, a house, a mortgage etc. (things that take away your freedom). But you fear losing financial security by not choosing the right job. You need work that is creative, deep, maybe edgy, not totally commercial, something a bit esoteric maybe, but ultimately practical. There is also some fear of your own creativity, that it's too impractical or foolish in some way.
When all is said and done, follow your passion.