Can I please get a reading regarding my current situation.
I am born in 12/08/1998. I am lost and confused. Particularly with my single life
2020 for you is all about evaluating the relationships in your life, starting with your relationship with yourself where you may have to let go of old tired attitudes, regrets or fears that aren't serving you. On the career front - it’s a “make or break” time for business. Issues related to control and perfectionism are also under review this year. You’ll be handed experiences that challenge you to let go of outgrown or counter-productive controlling tendencies. It’s a year where you’ll be required to heighten your sense of responsibility to your home and family environment. Don’t be surprised if you need to take on some added weight with home and domestic or family matters. Embrace it instead of resenting it. There’ll be added tension around how you relate with your close relationships, however. You are likely to find your relationship with those near and dear to you growing ever closer and stronger this year, while any relationship that is no longer of mutual benefit will come under the microscope and may actually end (if it didn’t already end last year). It can be a great year for marriage if you have met ‘the one’. It’s also time to investigate if you feel empowered or disempowered in your home and domestic life. Your energy levels will run high this year, but you should watch for hasty or impetuous behaviour. Remember that haste makes waste. As long as you direct your excess energy constructively, instead of wasting your time in conflict, you can accomplish much. It is a time when you may be concerned with taking care of your home, perhaps decorating, buying furniture, or even finding a new home. It is also worthwhile to consider taking courses that focus on your well-being and balance. If you have ever wanted to paint, sing, act, or play a musical instrument for pleasure, this is also favoured in 2020. 2021 will tend to be a quiet, reflective sort of period where you can gain much insight and understanding of who you are. Whereas 2020 will centre around and be all about looking after others - friends and family, and your home. Next year it will be time to look after yourself and your needs and wants. Then 2022 will be your BIG chance for success and material gains. It will be the best year in a while for your career and finances if you are prepared to take educated risks and promote yourself.
When it comes to life and love, you have got to learn to RELAX, girl! Time out from your often frantic pace is not time wasted but time gained; you can recharge your batteries so you no longer run on empty. You have very high expectations of yourself that can be unrealistic and unattainable since no one is perfect, nor do they have the perfect life. You are still quite young and there is no need to run around frantically trying to have everything at once. Focus on what is most important to you and strive for that.
You are here to combine creativity and material success, learning to apply your power and express your energy with compassion and generosity. You are not here to achieve wealth or influence for their own sake, but rather in the service of a greater and larger cause, whether a small circle of friends or colleagues, or the community at large. Still, you will have to battle with powerful insecurity and self-doubt, as well as a tendency to give away, avoid, or sabotage your own power or abundance. You may especially do this with your mouth, since you are also here to deal with issues of expression. You must eventually get in touch with and express your feelings and sensitivities, overcome that self-doubt, and deal with issues related to repressed anger toward authorities so that you can take on your own authority. Your independent, controlling nature (you can be overly solicitous and helpful at first, but if you overhelp, you can rebound into resentment) with its repressed or explosive power can make you hard to live and work with until you gain more maturity and become able to control yourself, rather than other people, and direct your considerable energy to creative contributions that uplift and empower those around you, helping others find their own source of energy and inspiration.
In love matters, .you can attract admirers effortlessly, but your tendency to put work before your relationships can limit your chances of happiness in love. Of course, you may choose to put your work first but you cannot also expect your relationships to thrive. You must focus on one or the other. You will thrive best with a partner who can appreciate your star quality and does not mind you stealing the limelight, but who can also equal you in intelligence and determination. Even though you may appear very secure outwardly, when feeling insecure, you may seek out one or more partners to give you a better sense of yourself. You have paradoxical energy in that you need a strong person to lean on and yet you tend to try to control everybody in your world. Issues of power and control, as well as insecurity, can affect your sex life and you may either give away your power or abuse it, preferring either to be overpowered or to be in charge. You may not realize how strong you can come on sometimes but it can be a bit overpowering to others who may see you as controlling. If you can learn to assess the potentially damaging effect your forceful approach can have on other people and develop greater tolerance and patience, this will not only help you achieve your aims more successfully, it will add an additional and infinitely more rewarding dimension to your life.
You are a natural leader, with the important qualities of authority, sensitivity, and creativity that can help solve any problem. Depending on whether you are working your issues with power and authority in positive or negative ways, you can either choose to apply power wisely and with authority or else use it to subjugate others. Your personal relationships can serve as a mirror to help you understand and balance your life. You may be surprised that I would call you a leader and forceful since you may see yourself as passive or quiet. But you are highly independent in both thought and action. Sometimes, you may not even be aware of your inherent mysticism. You are very psychic and you have an other-worldly aura about you. Other people seem to sense it and are drawn to you for it, yet you can exhibit various defense mechanisms such as being secretive to preserve your inner world. Deep down, you know that your sensitivity is not only what makes you most human, but is like a golden thread connecting you to the divine. Though you are aware that you are a bit different from others, this doesn’t disturb you much. However, you do pay a price for the delicacy of your inner life, often suffering pain more acutely because of it. So as to protect your profound tenderness, rarely will you allow others a glimpse of it. You are not shy per se; you don’t exhibit timidity; rather, you are extremely reserved and self-protective and may even be perceived as cold by others. Yet you will defend that sensitivity if attacked by either becoming more withdrawn or more aggressive.
As previously mentioned, self-sabotage can be a particular issue in both your love life and the rest of your life, especially your finances. You need to understand that positive connections between people are a source of mental and physical well-being. You need to realize that your resentment and negativity will hurt you more than it hurts the target of your anger. You can get caught up too much in feeling like a victim, when in fact you chose the life you have through your decisions and actions. Learning to accept, understand and relax when people around you disobey, rebel or question is therefore crucial to your health. Having more fun and spending more time with your friends and loved ones should definitely be a priority. You must also learn to trust - both yourself and other people. Yet you can be a terrible judge of character. Since you tend to be psychic, you may feel swamped by your extrasensory impressions and find it difficult to sort out what you are experiencing or sensing. Thus, you may often feel confused and have a hard time making decisions. You may experience other people as lying or dissembling because you sense this to be true. With no basis in fact, people then respond by telling you that you are “crazy” or “paranoid” and so you become insecure in your own ability to judge others. Not knowing what to believe, seeing untruths wherever you turn, you can become distrustful and torn by the pull of contrary forces. Either you are super rational, making decisions based on pure logic with little intuition attached, or your tenderness - and neediness - hold sway in singularly irrational ways. Thus, you can be suspicious of those who might genuinely offer you love or, alternatively, you trust those who ultimately betray you so that your defensiveness is only compounded by life experience. Recognizing your tendency to make poor judgments about others, you may retreat into social isolation.
Overall, you must develop true wisdom, which is grounded in the body, in the heart, and not merely in rational thinking. By cultivating your own inner wisdom, you will grow to trust yourself more and will be able to take more risks in revealing yourself to the world. Ultimately, life circumstances will force you out of your self-protective retreat because the world needs a dose of your sensitivity and caring. Allowing yourself to serve as an example to others is an important part of your journey. You will learn how to relate in a more mature way, developing relationships based on mutual respect and trust rather than need or fear.